wasting time wondering

[from queenie that i should try TYPING properly]

you wonder at times for your own
existence
how cliche

you ponder at times over your own
life
how boring

you fumble through all your own
memories
how useless

you looked through all the people's
faces
how wonderful?

you skim through all these people's
thoughts
can you?

you
walked wearily
towards the tree

you
sat slowly,
breathing blatant breaths

suddenly you stop
realized
you're dragged back to
reality

consiously you're
reluctant
to reject the dream.(I'm
recalcitrant?)

what's so bad about your
life?
what's so good about your
dream?
face reality for
once?
which might change me for
eternity?
take dreams for
real?
which might drag me further into
self-denial?

truth hurts alot
i know.
lies aren't any better
when revealed,
the level of hurt
is the same as
the level of joys
you had

some say we've got to
pay
for what we've done today

some say we've got to
make
the best out of my today

some say we've just got to do it all your way..no restrains..
bcuz its YOUR life that im talking about.
so get the Hellz out of that bedroom.
show everyone.no you don't have to.
trust yourself you can.you are.
you may be nobody to everyone,
but you're somebody yourself.
proof is superficial?
you know best.

it is in this modern times that we wish to proof bcuz we want to be loved in return.
we have forgotten that things are purely 身外之物& look what we have turned Earth in2.
so horrible.like a battlefield.for survival only.
everyone
i believe if everyone just cast aside their things,they would have more time 2..love.
ancient cavemen did this before havn't they..we just..implemented..stuff..which is...
unneccessary?
we know.we try.im trying.but nothing turns out in the end.nature dies eventually..dog
dies
bcuz they have selfish owners like us..who would want to stick in front of computers.
(knowing they're unnecessary)

i think im going too far.
*stretches to pull myself back*
coda:i try nt 2 depend on another 4 my existence.i noe thrs more meaning in buddies=)
bonds r always broken,mended&formed.chill..thrs a reason u're on Earth&nt some
ulu planet wif angels&devils hu r envious of balanced humans bcuz we're on a
weighing machine we stand btw tempts&goals..

laugh bcuz this post is nothing more than insignificant trash on Bill Gates invention,internet.