naive

naive.
why do people think that they understand someone else so throughly, wanting to make the decision for the person
everytime
i don't understand
am i still too naive?
i think i am
but what do i do?
i try to learn
but there's so much more to learn
i know i can't learn everything
but i'm trying my best
to learn what i like
but why do people give such sarcasm
like they knew you so well
like they've got every right to put you down
why
maybe they don't know it
maybe you've got to speak up
maybe they've just gotta try another means
then it'll all be fine
but why are some of us so sensitive
so sensitive
it may not have been a needed thing
invisible
yes
like, what's a soul?
like. i don't know.

i can't put my feelings in words
and it's pretty irritating at times
tsk

there's something
something really weird

now let me think
let me think
let me think

people are so fickle-minded
they say one and the next moment two
they don't admit what they've said before and they force you to comply to what they want
they've never asked for your opinion
biasness right before your face
oh yes, you're pretty much invisible aren't you?
seemingly taken for granted
oh wait, it ain't even a seemingly thing then..

suddenly they've expressed their concerns for you
but you're pretty wary of that arent you?
how can anyone be so nice to you or to anyone else
there's always a motive, always someone to benefit
nobody would've liked to make a loss
it's about the profits
it's an evil world, and we cant really trust anybody

the empty heart

what is it that we're really after.
does having all the goodness makes you a saint?
no wait. there's no point in being a saint cuz it's not worth trying. you can't make it.
the world was never round. who said so?
i feel empty, lacking of the answers to the complicated/simple questions im holding.
it seemed too good to be true.
well, people might be saying i aint making good use of my time now but hell i dont care
seemingly lacking of something.
of the something that was all in us a while ago.
it wasn't something too good.
but perhaps, the change was too great.
amazing.
how can people change so quickly.
perhaps, it's all in us,just that we don't know.
hence, it seems so dangerous.
so easy to say.
so difficult to not think about it.
it comes so naturally.
when you're alone of cos.
the image seems so chilly
but.
nobody will care about you because you're but an ordinary girl.
you have no right to ask for anything, to make anybody worry about you, cos that's not a contribution it's like taking something that doesnt belong to you and for wasting something that seemed so precious.
you hate it.but there's no choice i think.
and now just stop it stop it. but it's like a car without the brakes.
i can't.
it hurts.
and i'll just sleep with this pain in me.
waking up to a bright new day.
hoping that dusk will never come.
where hope and stopping the day and night cycle is impossible.
you just carry on. wishing everything will just turn out to be fine.

after o'levels

wow. it looks like the holidays has started and my blog has been so dead but its ok.
class outing was pretty fun and in social network the geek was pretty cool.wow,should get hooked up with a geek next time eh=pthey earn loads of money.

reading through the letters its kinda hard to believe that school's over yea.

badminton chalet was pretty fun.i'll never ever say that sg is so small again,at least in the near future=p walking for one hour plus to a bus top at east coast park well it didnt seemed that long, was manageable
explored T1 T2 T3 in changi airport
and well i dun even know where i am already la in changi airport.
they made an announcement in changi airport for something and somehow at that point in time just felt that the announcement wwas for like some crazy bunch of kids running around =p
then went to illuma was like freaking tired already la fancy running around 2 days after your o levels =p but it was alright still havnt die =)
then CAB to st james? power station, next to vivocity HAHA then bump into the other 2 teams there they looked pissed cuz they MRT-ed there =p
aiya tiring leh so just went GIANT to buy drinks i think we're dam slackers mann
pizza-ed at marina barrage then
not bad at least never make us go jurong point =p
performance by sec1s were funny and interestin reminding me that i've grown and that i used to be like them hope that they'll treasure what they're having now =D
first day was horror movie and games and BBQ-ed for SIX Hours till 11pm then never sleep first day cuz too squeezy anw went else where to hangout and slept wherever i went la hehe

Time is running. And i need to grab it before it runs out.