Peeks

2011-01-07T02:53:00.000-08:00

found this little post-it on my messy table. wrote it just before o level biology. hehe, hope my biology will be okay. not aiming for awesome, maybe just a best =P

明知道不应该,但老爱看以前受到的信,搞得自己痛苦流涕.明知道时光无法逆转,但总希望回去上您的课.明知道时间不等人,但总不在乎牺牲那点时间,回味往事.也许自己太平凡了,往往就被些小事触动感情心玄.但我的确是个平凡的女孩子,却能得到大家的爱,真让我感到幸福.

naive

2010-11-28T06:19:00.000-08:00

naive.
why do people think that they understand someone else so throughly, wanting to make the decision for the person
everytime
i don't understand
am i still too naive?
i think i am
but what do i do?
i try to learn
but there's so much more to learn
i know i can't learn everything
but i'm trying my best
to learn what i like
but why do people give such sarcasm
like they knew you so well
like they've got every right to put you down
why
maybe they don't know it
maybe you've got to speak up
maybe they've just gotta try another means
then it'll all be fine
but why are some of us so sensitive
so sensitive
it may not have been a needed thing
invisible
yes
like, what's a soul?
like. i don't know.

i can't put my feelings in words
and it's pretty irritating at times
tsk

there's something
something really weird

now let me think
let me think
let me think

people are so fickle-minded
they say one and the next moment two
they don't admit what they've said before and they force you to comply to what they want
they've never asked for your opinion
biasness right before your face
oh yes, you're pretty much invisible aren't you?
seemingly taken for granted
oh wait, it ain't even a seemingly thing then..

suddenly they've expressed their concerns for you
but you're pretty wary of that arent you?
how can anyone be so nice to you or to anyone else
there's always a motive, always someone to benefit
nobody would've liked to make a loss
it's about the profits
it's an evil world, and we cant really trust anybody

the empty heart

2010-11-23T06:51:00.000-08:00

what is it that we're really after.
does having all the goodness makes you a saint?
no wait. there's no point in being a saint cuz it's not worth trying. you can't make it.
the world was never round. who said so?
i feel empty, lacking of the answers to the complicated/simple questions im holding.
it seemed too good to be true.
well, people might be saying i aint making good use of my time now but hell i dont care
seemingly lacking of something.
of the something that was all in us a while ago.
it wasn't something too good.
but perhaps, the change was too great.
amazing.
how can people change so quickly.
perhaps, it's all in us,just that we don't know.
hence, it seems so dangerous.
so easy to say.
so difficult to not think about it.
it comes so naturally.
when you're alone of cos.
the image seems so chilly
but.
nobody will care about you because you're but an ordinary girl.
you have no right to ask for anything, to make anybody worry about you, cos that's not a contribution it's like taking something that doesnt belong to you and for wasting something that seemed so precious.
you hate it.but there's no choice i think.
and now just stop it stop it. but it's like a car without the brakes.
i can't.
it hurts.
and i'll just sleep with this pain in me.
waking up to a bright new day.
hoping that dusk will never come.
where hope and stopping the day and night cycle is impossible.
you just carry on. wishing everything will just turn out to be fine.

after o'levels

2010-11-20T02:34:00.000-08:00

wow. it looks like the holidays has started and my blog has been so dead but its ok.
class outing was pretty fun and in social network the geek was pretty cool.wow,should get hooked up with a geek next time eh=pthey earn loads of money.

reading through the letters its kinda hard to believe that school's over yea.

badminton chalet was pretty fun.i'll never ever say that sg is so small again,at least in the near future=p walking for one hour plus to a bus top at east coast park well it didnt seemed that long, was manageable
explored T1 T2 T3 in changi airport
and well i dun even know where i am already la in changi airport.
they made an announcement in changi airport for something and somehow at that point in time just felt that the announcement wwas for like some crazy bunch of kids running around =p
then went to illuma was like freaking tired already la fancy running around 2 days after your o levels =p but it was alright still havnt die =)
then CAB to st james? power station, next to vivocity HAHA then bump into the other 2 teams there they looked pissed cuz they MRT-ed there =p
aiya tiring leh so just went GIANT to buy drinks i think we're dam slackers mann
pizza-ed at marina barrage then
not bad at least never make us go jurong point =p
performance by sec1s were funny and interestin reminding me that i've grown and that i used to be like them hope that they'll treasure what they're having now =D
first day was horror movie and games and BBQ-ed for SIX Hours till 11pm then never sleep first day cuz too squeezy anw went else where to hangout and slept wherever i went la hehe

Time is running. And i need to grab it before it runs out.

2010-09-20T03:11:00.001-07:00

The World is But a Lie.

2010-08-09T01:17:00.000-07:00

What's your dream?
To be able to dream?
So, am I not dreaming?
Now, what's.. the defination to dream?

2009-12-30T02:20:00.000-08:00

LOL!my sis came bac tis mornin liao i tot she 8pm den reach SG de luh lolx
so they went to surprised mum durin her lunch T_T
n sis went eat KFC sayin its heavenly lol she say thr KFC is DRIED chicken liddat 1 lol super disgustin luh @.@
tsk.dun go for trg n leavin halfway durin e trg seriously makes no diff.it's still bad.
anw i tink i nid ankle guard if nxt wk still liddat luh tsk its e ls trg of e wk liao lei
tsk so incompetent

2009-12-29T06:06:00.000-08:00

the mind is there,but the body is not there.lol.

hais.juz alittle bit more.hang on!

gt e super nice feel jacket =p
JJ'S LATEST ALBUM ROAR =D!!!

wellsxz.sprints r upsxz for comin trgs =)
very sure 2day we missed 1 round luh durin p.t.
lol.mm..hais..JY!cn do it de!!!
they're all so busy..and i better get busy too!off w e hwk-.-
wan2 play sumore badminton sia lol cuz nt gd enuf zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!

i tink i nid to be faster,stronger and MAINTAIN e accuracy and smarter of cos =)
muz.

oh oh and i tink im goin for a charity run on 31/01/10 lol a short run de =) get e T-shirt!unexpectantly gt e brochure fm Swensons de =)!

damnit.
Sherlock Holmes.

2009-12-28T05:55:00.000-08:00

What do you do when you know you're in misery and yet you can't do anything about it?
You live with it.

2009-12-27T23:55:00.000-08:00

just alittle more..alittle more..

2009-12-23T06:43:00.000-08:00

-the little things in life keep you motivated in living on-

anw gt it fm a show la.
my left leg is lyk actin up agn,so annoyin at all times of e yr T_T
its lyk e more u dunwan sth 2 come,e higher chances it'll come.lol.
tsk my dad bdae is day sis bac lol gt rough idea wad 2 get le =p
2pid mum's boss SO FUSSY den tmw mum cnt 1/2day T_T!

Sherlock Holmes.

2009-12-20T01:51:00.000-08:00

CSC was totally crap la lol T_T
got a black shirt but dun lyk e shiny stuff =/
n they put all e random stuff inside haha

bought beau's ribbon.then make us stop at PS juz to have lunch T_T xmas deco nt tt nice tis yr =/ cheapo!0.0 the sausages are nice!!

played w TP.ok la.
tummy ache aft playin awhile on thurs =/
my open hse box =(((

300+ pic for washin? 0.0
hais.nid do album =/

SISTER COMING BACK ON 30TH DEC!

wonders if it's a gd/bad tink 0o. but whichever,u dun hav a say in it 0.0
graduate w Bachelor in Commerce 0o
she say she wan2 do Masters oso 0o

Avatar is nice =) wan2 watch Sherlock Holmes =/

--on the quest for bears

2009-12-12T23:56:00.001-08:00

Nothing was ever an excuse.

2009-12-11T20:55:00.000-08:00

heh heh i tink im gettin fm bad 2 worse =p
hehz.i was actualy quite happy 2day dun hav badminton wakaka =p
or rather i was lookin 4ward 2 sat tis wk lol
cuz wen i jus wen bac 4 trg on tue it strted off quite hiong-ly aft 1wk nvr train T_T
den i was like 'omg my rite wrist is so painful'
den on tue my elbow abit tight la lol
but then friday ok liao
den aft tt wen i was playin in e court den i heard a crack in my left leg den i was lyk shit
hence i hav put today as a restin day for my wrist =p so pathetic T_T hais.
but better than nt being able 2 play 4 upcomin competitions la =)

2009-12-09T06:09:00.000-08:00

its like the 4th day after i'd been back already,sleeping 7-8hours per day and yet i still feel tiredsxz.
sleep so much already.lol.

my mum just flown to brisbane,then now melbourne.lol,sis going to graduate soon =)

dont help to close all the doors kena reprimanded.help to close all the doors also kena scolded.what you want me to do the next time?

i _ she _back_=)

i dont know if this is going to be better or worse?but that's what im thinking for now =)

im not surely all of the jobs you can go into if you're interested in chemistry.but i guess for now,i'd better work on my english and combined humanities! =XXX

training seems to be tiring but when you reflect on it, it's fun la.keke.but it does take the toll on you,and yet you know you should do so much more..

there are different times for different things.
a different path for every goal.

and yet,the wait is excruciating sometimes.

Chemistry Learning Journey to Perth 2009

2009-12-05T21:36:00.001-08:00

sat
actually is gather at 10.30pm at the airport one luh.then he change to 10pm.roar~so early T_T
then sec3s got purple files..=/ gaysxz.
natasha bought us each a rose if i remember correctly.but then cannot bring up the plane luh =/ so in the end she took it home =/
lol.their toilets got perfumes one,haha.

sun
then just slacked for another 1h cuz he say want be there an hour earlier ma.zz.
sat with Jesslyn in the plane.sorry luh how i know we only got one breakfast hur =p

their airport is like really simple.and there are around 10+shops in there only.the outside and inside of the clearance still got identical shops somemore luh.lol i still remember the last time my mum bought something at Brisbane there then no stock liao,they tell her go the inside shop collect the good after she'd paid the lady.lol.

our bus driver of the trip is Uncle Harry.
i got a single seat by the window which is actually not bad =)

went to Monument Hill to take some nice pictures with the clocktower i think and the scenery. =) this is like out first stop only luh and everyone is like camwhoring alot already,haha.

i think we also went to the fishing boat harbour to take photos of the indian ocean isit?=X but really nice scenery. somemore that day got competition of the rafting. camwhored there also =)
ohoh and the wind here was like one of the strongest for the whole of our trip =)

went to E-shed Markets.me yn and bt saw some chocolate coated fruits outside the fridge. and there are alot of flies there what so i suggested we buy the ones in the fridge. but after getting them we realised it was way too hard to bite T_T and cold somemore T_T
bought some postcards too =)

went Fremantle Chocolate Factory and it may be a small shop but the designs there are pretty nice. what's more,you get to try them before you get them =P
ohoh,i bought chilli chocolate for fun too =p
the chocolates may be nice but it's only the first day.so definitely it'll melt ma,so smart me got the boxes one instead =P

lunched at Sweetlips for fish and chips and the people there forgotten to give us our drinks so in the end they refunded each person 2.80Aussie 0o.
oh and Harry brought out some chilli sauce and mayanoise.and when we couldnt finish it we'd decided to share it with the people at the other table and they were so delighted.cuz in Aussie there's practically no sauce to go with anything anywhere.its like you'd got to buy them yourseld if you want it.unlike free sauces we can get anywhere locally.

shopped at Hay Street.bought at Roxy bag and Havaniias slippers.yay!

New Esplanade hotel has a pretty nice deisgn from the outside and big rooms.

mon
omg i tell you,i nearly slept during the vice chancellor's(principal) welcome talk sia.but still i made myself looked still awake ok.but alfway through i was like 'when is this going to end?' lol
and actually im not really interested in the tour around the school but wellsxz,these are all the standard things the school would have done la.

ohoh.the nice part is going to their chemistry building and CSIRO.and then we got to see this machine which i didnt know was actually SO expensive. it's some machine using X-rays to find out the properties of substances.
crude oil is like $1 per litre.lol.
i wonder if crude oil is difficult to obtain 0o.
unfair luh we cannot get it =(
in my own opinion,i thinks CSIRO showcased the different aspects of chemistry.
oraganic chem:crude oil
analytical chem:how to find copper under the ground
physical chem:hydrates blocking underground pipes carrying natural gases
there's another one where we're just seeing gold.idk what it is really about.but i just know that gold is valuable cuz everyone else thinks it is so.and big pieces of gold are really hard to find.you may find for 10 years but to no avail.gold also has no industrial purposes so really it is a useless piece of metal?0.0

ok.then we'd had the biofuel presentation.and by now i was really zonked k.i really slept during the presentation =/ but its not my fault that im tired k.....anw,not just that i kena caught by kang =p

Jade Dynasty food are not that bad la.maybe not as nice as that in SG but still ok for that in overseas luh =) abit salty,lol,maybe they put MSG inside.ee.. =x

tue
went to Alcoa refinery.even though it was a mistaken trip but still its still wonderful to be able to see such a place.
Bauxite!

the lecture about Chemical Engineering Visit right.i seriously never sleep this time luh =D keke.so proud of myself =)
anywaysxz,we're also abit late luh so had to eat and listen 0o. even though so, as evident i never sleep this time i asked questions k =p
even though the lecture was quite useless abit only la. but i understood the difference between a chemist and a chemical engineer adn im thankful they made the difference clear to me =)

went to Chemical Engineering Lab do some INTERESTING experiments.
the first one was to find out the identities of the 5 different compounds by mixing them together and using a systematic method.they're water,acid,base,carbonate and indicator.
the second one was about ionisation energies.where you'd spray different compounds onto the orange part of the flame, not towards the blue part cuz you'd extinguish it.then you'd see that the flame turns into a variety of colours =) got pink one also =)
ohoh then another one was making silver k.just add the stuff and you'd produce silver sia.lol!

At sizzle mania all of our eyes were stuck onto the tv sia,cannot remember which movie they were showing.anyway,amanda's dish couldnt sizzle luh =p

went to Wheel Of Perth for 12.80Aussie[student price =)] smaller than SG ferris wheel luh.rained.tonight was 14degrees.

loved the walk after the ferris wheel =)

wed
well..we went to swan brewery but i must say im not interested in it =X but then at least i took photos and listen abit here and there,read the thngs on the stands k.so i got a rough idea how the brewery does its things and the diffrence between beer and wine =)
oh and bt thought swan brewery means got swans T_T!

Domino pizzaED.

ORCHARD GLORY FARM RESORT!!!
after dinnering we camwhored outside function room.then took pictures under the sunset.
we saw the sun setted.really nice.
night falled.MOVIE NIGHT!even though i can't appreciate it.0o.it's Inkheart.

thurs
mm..i must say i'd prefer wines to beers =p

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
that stupid bob[horse] kick poppy[pony] away and got sand into my eyes while i was feeding poppy!!!ROAR~!!
dam irritating la!tsk =B
also we fed the alpaco[i dont think its spelt this way but nvm =)]

walao.then when everyone else was playing the treasure hunt i was out there taking care of Ethan T_T then had to spy with him on the other team also T_T but then he's quite smart for a primary2 seh.he'd go chase the goose to scare the other team or tell us to destroy the stuff after taking pictures of them so the other team wont find them.lol. but it was really hot la =/

aiyo.then saw sheeps sheared.the dog is really good leh.she will really guard the sheeps,preventing them from getting away kind one.even though the sheeps on the truck,locked.she will still look at them de 0.0 and she likes playing with balls haha but then..the poor Aussie boy's tennis ball got saliva all over it! =X

movie night at begam's chalet.another boring show la,almost fell asleep. =/

fri
really sad.i really liked the time spent at the farm =)

crystal cave tour.nice cool 17 degree celsius underground

naragebup environment centre.intereacted with snakes,lizards,turtles,plants and fishes.lol.
i like to see the turtles dive nia.
not really interested in keeping things clean and green even though it is something really important and needed to be learnt luh =/

dinnered at indonesia indah.indah means beautiful 0.0

sat
comfort hotel i dont really like it as compared with the previous one cuz its smaller and less cosier.more modern like that.0.0

went wildlife park.pictured kangaroos,wombat,foxes,dingos,kookabaru,eagle,ducks,koalas,possums,guinea pigs,donkey,camel,crocodile,emu,peacock,parrots.
n omg,i took a close-up view of the emu n then it bite my camera string n i pulled it back vigourously,LOL!
phew~
but then got abit of its saliva luh =/ but quite interesting la.it was pretty quick in biting e string sia.i didnt actually have enough time to siam it luh 0.0
the possums wont show us their faces,keep showing us their butts nia,grr..
the tasmanian devils wont come out =/
oh a koala DROPPED onto the floor when we were inside there sia haha so we all managed to see its face up close but cannot stroke it la,just pose and take pic
lucky!
there's a donkey at the farm area there called Tommy and he doesnt eat normally
0.0
if you put food on your hand and feed him normally,he wont eat.
he rather you THROW the food into his mouth for him to eat 0.0

went kings park for a "plant walk"
nice smellsxz,good viewsxz,great tourguide.
whatelse can you ask for?
somemore there're LOTS of shades there =)

HARBOUR TOWN FACTORY OUTLETS!!!
SHOPPING!!!
bought from jay jay,billabong and fox.didnt have enough time to go to SuperDry =/
oh.i got one shirt original is about 20+.so discount there became 15.den got a 10min promotion when i there.so it became 9.den i let bt help me pay first[cut Q ma =p] then later she said she'd paid 5Aussie for it nia 0.0
more promotions =)
aiya.we only had 100min to shop ok.then we were liek running from places to places alittle bit.haha.but definitely not as much as yurda and amanda luh =p

i dont know if we'd had nasi briyani at Mak's Place 0.0 but they just keep refilling your rice and orange juices.lol 0.0

7.30pm reached airport liao lei.cannot complain la,everyone very tired also.
then packed luggages,weigheh and did reflections till 10pm.
then Qed at counter till 11pm.then shopped 45min outside clearance.then slacked inside till 1am.then board plane liao JUST SLEEP!
woke up around 3.30am eat breakfast.emily complained she's had a hard time waking me up.keke.
and this was the time when we'd realised bt was very very sick.
later we'd knew its due to the body unable to accustom to sudden temperature changes cuz Aussie very hot ma and cabin very cold luh =/
she was in agony and feeling really really really cold =/

oh my.i'd finished uploading the photos liao.am tired,gonna sleep alot till tomorrow morning =)

Open House 2009

2009-12-05T21:20:00.000-08:00

woke up around 6 to get ready then met michelle and denise at the bustop lol
is actually denise dunno how go then they nidda meet up one luh.
nearly got lost when walking to school after taking bus 64 =P
too long never go le ma!
took around 80min to set up the booth then slacked.hehe.
our booth is like so nice luh =)
actually i can't really remember but we did give out flyers and souvenirs.and the banner was nicely put up.eh..got people carrying the walking poster around.and yea..just happy that it's over =)

2009-11-24T08:29:00.000-08:00

hp is dyin lyk HellZ.howz howz =///

2009-11-24T08:24:00.000-08:00

well it seems that the mood of shopping greatly depends on the partner.
haha
open house.travel.chinese project.chemistry.sleep.

there's so many i want to do and need to do omg =(
and trainings =)
new hallz!!!

mm..mayb i shld pre-say it.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JO-ANN![25/11]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CELINE[03/12]

Still lk-in 4 my oneh oneh.roar~

i m goin 2 relax.i m goin 2 relax.tts wad kept me doin 4 e past 2 wks.lol.durin e travel la.
mm..n pray pray i wun suay kena ldr of sth durin travel =p

buzied.tired.

2009-11-20T18:55:00.000-08:00

sat
family gatherin at orchard
dined at Sakae agn -.+
just took pics w e lightings luh
somemore wad they shop is nt my taste 1 n take so long somemore yawns~

sun
actually cn go 4 trg 1 luh!!!
hais.
so hor,wen 4 chalet early instead.
[p.s.i didnt noe chalets cld b so tirin 0.0]
so hor,slack slack la.free&easy sia.
den i tink we had Amazing Race 0.0
2 teams.they had 2 run 2 5 stations i tink,2 get clues,proceedin 2 e nxt stop.
mine was e 3rd ls,it was @ pasir ris park.
den me n momo sit @ e some tower la.
den she told me a baby ghost story,which is nt scary but it helps 2 pass time,keke.
ohoh,den my idea rite.cuz muz do forfeit @ every station ma.
so we had e teams rite "I heart PC n JC" a.k.a. I love princess celine and joanne chee.LOL!
nat's team arrived l8r but their's was nicer la.but caroline's team is smarter,do fster but less nice,oops!=p
THEN HOR!wen nat's team left rite,it strted POURING sia 0.0
den poor me n cel had 2 run bac 2 downtown in e rain =(((
we were totally drenched la!
den had 2 go to EHub someore,cold cold =((
ehy ehy hw come we fster den them ar?
oh,its cuz they freakin missed e ppl standin at e ferris wheel they,caroline's team.haha!
yup,den their forfeit at EHub is to do some game n take a jumpshot =)
though some ppl aint too cooperative durin e game leavin e work to others,but still e game eneded well =)
dined at BBQ Chicken n is nt nice luh =B den watch a movie[cd] which i tried hrad 2 keep awake =/ omg,n cel is very noisy wen she watched e movie,RAWR~!

mon
露宿街头的夜晚
cuz we bk e downtown 1 rite,n 2ntie gt exceptionally more ppl ma.so AND e s2 said they're gonna b out e whole nite cyclin,so aint comin bac luh.so nciely,we fitted s1,3,4 in e rm.but den i c them liddat den aiya let them hav more space la,sumore i nt tt tired ma.so me n cel fetch nat out take cab den we walked 2 white sands,hangin out thr.super nice luh,nicer than e rm thr,haha.we wanted 2 slp thr de until..jo-ann/py called me n said they gt driven outta rm thanks 2 s2.n i gt freakin mad n lyk suddenly my sleepiness all gone,become super energetic sia.
den i was lyk omg y let them hav e space?!@$%@#$
den in e end we went bac 2 downtown macs talk talk.
i gt nth 2 say la 4 both parties actions.idk y they call me oso.lol.only make me more pissed off nia.
anw its freakin cold sia downtown macs n gt so many ppl rawr.

in e aftnoon,we playin stuffin most marshmallows in ur mouth game,LOL!
den had our performance which i tink its pretty gd cuz all had comedy =)
e caterer yt recommeded is rly rly gd!
i wld hire his svc if gt chance agn 1 luh =D
den we played In Between for e rest over fd.quite fun,haha cuz me n jo-ann gt high on fd tt nite =p
den i was so lazy tt she had 2 kept feedin me keke
rice is at least better than fishballs,lol!
den we went out buy containers.den s1 wanted play Truth or Dare but i was freakin tired so i juz BOM on e bed n slept instantly =p

tue
check out.slept 1 h @ hm.
trg at 3pm but nidda reach thr @ 2.30pm.i reached thr rite on e spot k,accordin 2 my hp la =p
but still i oso noe coach wld b 1h l8 la tsk so we only trained w him 4 half h?O>O
den wen Nanyang Poly 2 hav friendly match.had a small 擦伤 durin 1 of e games den aft tt i cldnt jump well tsk
den coach drive me n yt hm,nt rly la,he juz drop us @ a petrol station quite near out homes.
oh den durin e ride he kept changin btw 3 sngs:a classical music,a sean kingston song,a britney sng
but actually all 3 is fine w me la, xcept yt dun lyk e classical music.so he switch fm e 1st to e 2nd to e 3rd den to e 2nd sng.rawr!i lyk e 3rd sng 1 luh grr..
den i ask whether he goin hm nw anot,den @ 1st he said yes but l8r say goin fwen hse.lol =p
den i was being a nice sis by buyin mac's ice-cream 4 bro along e way luh,c i so nice rite =p

wed
slacked e whole day,didnt go 4 trg cuz cnt jump
oh quite pathetic,i was treatin my injury den i put antiseptic liao den i realise gt no medication so i had 2 limp 2 my aunt hse [abit la] den treat my injury further.lol.
mac's gt no more monopoly promotion liao!=P nt fun le =(

thurs
shopped at plaza singn dined at Cafe Cartel.but its rly 2 much den they keep makin me go get e bread sumore rawr n their dessert is dam pathetic.a super uber small swiss roll,lol
their pork ribs still taste quite gd if eat occasionally.
OMG!den i gt my bear bear metal box n keychain -.+ actually i only wanted e metal box nia la,but both cute!=DDD
den gt an orange hairband.
ok la,Wang's coffee nt tt bad la =)
oh n i found a web gt cl sngs n hw make it lk lyk cl words in ipod n nt some weird symbols =)

fri
friendly match w TKGS
i realised i was always troubled wen i play matches.tink i nid tt confidence wen i play.n muz keep it in n cover ur partner.
den i fell in 1st set wen partnerin yt.it was actually quite horrible.cuz wen i fell,i cld hear e "crack" sound of my injury had durin nanyang poly b4 it strted bleedin.lol.
but den i was determined 2 finish e game.roar~!
its been a looooooooong time since i'd played a fast game liddat =) cuz yt gt my bac so i cld rest assured in coverin e front.n genereally yt cn get e shuttles i tell her 2 la,mayb cuz she's a singles player luh.but i nvr keep exploitin her k,mayb its e other way round luh,haha.
den aft e game,yt say i said funny tinks 2 her,n i tink tts juz my way of 自我安慰 cuz its rly pain its lyk e stingin kind of pain lol enuf abt tt

doin out w jesslyn l8r 2 get some *cough cough*

finger injury

2009-11-13T06:15:00.001-08:00

e bag of orange shirts was damn heavy if i'd had to carried it to tampiness sports hall but thankfully i need not travel there myself =)

do you know,i dont really understand why they say helping others is 储蓄 happiness
i mean e happiness tt ya get wun b more then e trouble u'd hav,rite?
so its dam crap la tis sentence 0.0

heh she cldnt stand me n told me 2 shuddap in e end =P

n juz when we were strtin 2 play better durin trg,den cel racket head hit my finger.she was tappin.
den l8r she put plaster thr.

den phoebe came along n "HAR" when she saw e blood clot n den she say y nvr put ice -.+ well y didnt u tink of tt earlier cel =p
nw my mid finger is taking over e index finger job 4 most stuff lyk typin =p
cn bend abit la but nt totally.so CNT WRITE cel T_T!

2009-11-11T05:23:00.000-08:00

somebody tried to brainwash me into believing that this world is so pure.
when it's actually not,i know.
but then if i didn't stop rebutting,i'd think the conversation would've never end =p

badminton chalet on the way.missing sunday training for it =(
next sunday got ex-classmate gathering!
then one more sunday in Aussie liao =)

钱 V.S. 情

2009-11-10T04:50:00.000-08:00

实际上,金钱才是最重要的.
这是真的.
当你知道此事的同时,你会不会因而失去了自己?
我们都知道每个人都是不同的,都有自己的风格,都有自己的那一套.
但是今日我目睹了两件因金钱而起争执的事件.
第一起发生在我阿姨的邻居的家.那老婆婆,我每一次看见她,都会情不自禁地发起怜悯之心.
今日,我也得知她有十个孩子,而他们今日的到来,是为了分的遗产的事情,吵得连对面那座组屋的人都听得见.
第二起事件竟然是一家人为了出过旅游的钱而起争执.
那么我在想,你对别人好,也未必他人会对你好,他们也有可能在你背后捅你一刀.
但是,也就是那一个东西或事件或人,才会引导你走向正途.
正确的价值观,影响,概念,好多好多哦!
但是,人都是有动摇过的时候,也许这能够算是吧.

我不屈服,我坚信我的道德,我不会以其人之身还其人之道,我不会辜负他人对我的期望,我要把份内的事情做好,我不能自私自利,我要真正地学会谦虚,我要一视同仁.

挫折,又算得了什么?总有一天,我一定会做得更好!

2009-11-08T06:45:00.000-08:00

i think i'll try my very best to hang on for as long as possible for now.

today i was stretching my utmost best 4 tis xcourt net fm 1 end to e other end.my racket almost touch e doubles line liao.
at e same time,tis was wad jesslyn was tryin 2 say "Ouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuut"
den i '闷'.. cuz i stretch 4 nth juz cuz she took so long 2 say it out.haha.

i was in sch on fri den i saw mdm goh hand gt some white stuff so i tot she injured den i stare n stare.den she lk @ me.den i realised its all masking tapes on her hand -.- den she strt laughin oso =p!

2009-11-07T08:07:00.001-08:00

made Carbonara and Tomato Soup for mum and aunt =D
but sth unhappy along e way so no pics cuz no mood =/

.

2009-11-06T06:34:00.000-08:00

mm..i finish like 50ep of Detective Conan in a wk,which is nt a record.anw busied w prep Open Hse n badminton n lesson xtensn.esp lyk mornin lesson aftnoon trg nite open hse.n den reach sch e nxt day realised haven do hwk =p.
well e banner is w e s1,shld b pretty much done,same for walkin poster.souvenirs doin in process w s2.

School trgs tue wed fri
Private sun
Others mon wed fri

Visiting 7nov
Performance Prep 8nov
Date/Start 9nov
Friendly match Bowen 12nov 9-12noon.
Badminton Chalet 14-17 Nov [still cnt cycle -.-]
Friendly match Nanyang Poly-tentative- 17nov
-i tink i shld go 4 more badminton cuz im juz nt gd enuf -.-
Souvenirs Due 18nov
Open House Prep 27nov
Open House 28nov
Chemistry LJ 29nov-6dec.
Family going overseas 6dec-14dec
-hope sis cn graduate tis time!=)
Phy&Bio Diagnostic test Term1Wk1

YES!!!we're leavin tt old n lousy temp sch 4 gd.keke.
lookin 4ward 2 new&nice hall.
got my badge liao.my class lyk almost 1/2 w tt badge luh -.+
gt another CD of class pics =)
LURBS 3 ABSOLUTELY ADDICTIVE !
i only went 4 ONE hip-hop session n tt tan?keep sayin it as "hop-hip"
Express Chinese lessons still cn b so fun unlyk those hmt ppl hoho everyday juz exam papers exam papers nw n den =p
=X
bio & cl projects were screwed.n den im editin e chinese pp 0o.

AND LIFE'S LIKE THAT YO

2009-10-26T06:32:00.000-07:00

"the future is a maze with no way out"
but i'd beg to say differently.
'the future is a maze' where different people takes different paths in different combinations to reach the 'way out' [death]

DOOMSXZ! Day [part 1]

2009-10-25T23:00:00.000-07:00

okay so on fri was 1st physic lesson bac w mr goh =D
i tink e lesson is so so so so so so so much much much much better than previous ________' lessons tt we'd had T_T i tink e lesson was supposed 2 b lyk better la.but i cnt absorb anytink T_T either 1:i became dumber 2:sleepy 3:sick
but den i wen doc aftwards n e pills he gimme is lyk SO SMALL 0.0 e other doc gimme 1 lyk very big luh 0.0 den i was suspectin e pills r nt strong enuf 4 me which is true.tt y i haven recovered T_T 2pid doc T_T

its mon.n its e 4th day i'm sick =(
feelin feverish in e mornin.nw better =)
but my throat feels awful =(((
water!!!

anw.thr is 3 gd tinks 2day.=D
1.yearbook!
2.passed cl compo!
3.broke personal record 4 chem!

bad tinks.
1.mum gonna scold for cl n SS[SS i still gt xcuse lyk cnt study =P cl bo leh.. =(((]
2.feelin sick![muz get well b4 trg!]
3.e worse aint over.

OMG.!@%#%$@#$e humans dept is lyk RAWR~!they tink they very big isit!ROAR~!make us w8 1/2h outside hall,dun gv us fan[stuffy n ultra quiet],scold us!,make us listen 2 some V1 n copy dwn wadeva n in e end i only hav wad adj on my paper nia=make my paper uglier tgt w e red stroke @ e bac.zzz.n den hor..hist is hist ppl take wad y nid us thr 4?!we dun even understand!!zzz.sumore dun let us slp?!

OMG.n im havin TT teacher 4 xtensn?it better b gd.
its lyk.no matter hw much i get 4 cl.my mum will always say its nt enuf.tsk.but y cl?i rly dun understand.

2009-10-22T07:06:00.000-07:00

im nt always rite yinshuen.

i tink i nid 2 be more 包容 and i think i can be a better person cuz im juz nt gd enuf.i nidda b better,i nidda improve,i nidda accept wad comes 2 me.

physic competition.hip-hop+牛车水+coach kelvin's last day

2009-10-22T05:26:00.000-07:00

wed
woke up early.5.30am!
met yin shuen and alexandra at city hall 0.0
[eh you're e 1 im afraid will 4get off mrt luh =p]
7.30am at yio chu kang mrt.me supposed meet my team thr 1.so w8 thr 4 e remaining teammate.den rest ppl folo suit,so many Cedarians w8in @ e mrt,haha!
met yeo,den she say we impolite.so we wen "Good..." den she stop us haha cuz we pretty loud =p
den e bunch of scholars came,den yeo say whether they'll b polite or nt.den they came n say mornin la,den she wen "Ah.See." den we all laugh =p
we cha0 early.7.50am w8in outside e Auditorium cuz doors closed -.- 8.15am registration strt ma.we 1st sch reach lehsxz!haha.den we ended up watchin channelnewsasia outside e auditorium -.- yeo wen "this is the only time your watch the news ar." aft mins of sianness and boredness and etc of w8in outside e auditorium pre-function rm,e ppl came n open e doors 4 us 1st!=p
oh oh.den in e pre-function rm yining help me paste e yellow sticker on2 my sleeve,den lyk i walk in2 e auditorium[nxt door] n sat dwn,i realised i lost my sticker liao -.-
oh n e female teacher in-charge of taking launcher was super animated luh!=p
projectile motion.45.4 degress w/o air resistance.
oh n e project required projectile motion i tink?0o but mainly common sense.but anw yining says e rest of e classes learnt it liao but our class haven,so dam suay luh!!!
i tink ok its NOT a launcher its A catapult.omg -.-!!
but anws,i tink we put in much effort comin up w e design of e project's base but e top part consistin of e cup n rubber bands,we didnt put much effort in2 it cuz we used some time in e deco of e project.hence,we gt e MOST INNOVATIVE award 4 our category=)yay=)
we worked fm 11.30am-1pm[supposedly]but person say cn work thru lunch n tt wad we did=)(i didnt eat lunch so e packet lunch became my dinner tt day =p e fish nt bad 0o]i tink its 2.15pm wen we wen 2 test-field.testing at 2.30pm i tink.we scored around 7 balls.GREAT!=D
31.5 marks,we got =) 5th!=D gd job team =)!
oh n Mr Goh was in charge of my team =) tt day tank,yau,kaur,yeo,goh wen 0.0 super stressful wen teachers around =( [initially] but i focused on my work!so its ok =)
yining was e person hu kept shootin e balls in2 e basket while fangling assisted her fm e sides =p
o n i cld nt tie knots =( so i supported e structure thruout e project n i did designation!=)yay!
ohoh n i was catching e balls tt didnt wen in2 e basket =p
Cedar gt 1st overall =)
vouchers left in sch's hands currently.
oh n yinshuen kena called 2 b interviewed hehe
e trophey nanyang poly gv very shiny leh 0.0

thurs
hip-hop in e mornin!heh..2day is e tan T_T n he keeps sayin hop-hip!-.-
actually i used 2 didnt lyk tt sng 1,e dance music.0o
i tink i cnt do dance cuz my knees will hurt wen mve sideways =/

CCA talk super borin!no recess thanks 2 tan -.- keep talk n talk even aft he talk finish wad nidda talk alr ar -.-

牛车水!
grped w ruth,yinshuen,alicia,sharmaine.
museum is nt tt little stuff as one wld hav judged it based on its shop's appearance.
it was a COPYING MISSION!haha.we juz c e walls n copy e ans in2 e ws =p n shenglaoshi 4get collect e ws eh =p
walked but dun rmb alr...
found tis shop called some 中国饼 shop
ppl dun lyk 2 b surveyed i realised.ps hur =p
oh n mdmsia gave tis SHOCKING look wen she noe jo-ann is badminton cap.hilarious!

trg.
coach kelvin's ls trg 2day.
gave tis green card w empty pgs.haha!initially nt enuf papers,nw 2 many papers eh =p
2 lizards fell on cel's head i tink wen she n py tokin 2 juniors.donated shuttles 2 pe dept.
yea n tt bunch of juniors+cel+py SCREAMED

PHOEBE SCARED THE HELL OUTTA ME
cuz i submit e stuff 2 ms yang liao.den phobe sudd say sth is rong w trg times WTH n mdm goh cnt access web so cnt update photo.so how?!
sol:mdm goh made a mistake w trg times and she told msyang to tell TA to edit pic =)

2009-10-20T06:55:00.000-07:00

queenie:eh no luh.we get to walk!and see clothes and shoes and bags and etc.i wan go Far East and get that red+black checkered shirt =p and i nidda get t-shirts 4 chem trip!0.0 i wan nice ones =(

class outing.MacRitchie.

2009-10-20T06:47:00.000-07:00

mon
class outing!
games planned included e mimic game,making brooms[ours damn nice can =P],guessing teachers.
camwhoring,captain's ball.
emo-ing at the beach.

tue
mornin:bio field trip to MacRitchie's wadeva.walked 5km.lurb walking =) but its pretty rush so i'd consider it more of a trekking?than admirin nature.lol!
nt fair luh.i put mosquito repellant den kena mosquito bites but jesslyn nvr put nvr kena luh!=(
the tree top walk i consider it low.=( but oh yea n leaf litters r interestin =)
omg n i realised wong is rly blur n i tink she's in-charge of e cambridge trip 1.dunno whether still goin anot,lol.
mm..den ate tis pepperish leaf 0.0 and took pic of tis look-like jig saw puzzles made up branches =p
noon:video conferencing course.he quite gd la.quite =p
communication skills workshop is lyk,wtf?
aftnoon:play games nia

omg n smart me realised im nt goin sch tmw but e proposal is w me =/ shall ask crystal since yanting nt goin sch =/

orchard.vivocity.bugis.

2009-10-17T08:07:00.000-07:00

i dont lyk trgs fm 12-2.firstly i may nt b able 2 wake up n secondly i slp l8 aft exams normally.ok la,i normally slp l8 oso 1.den thirdly,i always hav 2 buy lunch on my own nt lyk 4-6 den i hm gt dinner alr.den oso,12-2 rite,wen 2 i hm nobody 1.zzz.cuz my family wld hav wen out lyk a few min ago n normally they wun w8 4 me 1.zzz.cuz they gotta catch e cab luh.den it wld b me alone @ hm alone till 4+.zzz.
i want my red+black checkered shirt,my filmsy bag,my long pencilcase,my shiny sunglasses and my jeans!!!ROAR~!

sat
family breakfs first.
dressed,out,meet buyer at Cyrus Lanshop.
i managed find my way till e bustop he say luh.den i sms whether is walk left or rite.e rite wld b e directn tt's more 2wards Great World City luh,den he say rite.ok so i wen rite luh.but aft walkin 2 st,i realised sth was wrong cuz thrs nt gonna b more st if i keep walkin cuz it'll b a river alr wad.so i asked tis coffee shop uncle n he said it's in e OPPOSITE directn.n of cos la im pissed w e buyer luh.so i smsed him isit w or opp. e flow of e traffic n he said it's WITH the flow of e traffic.den im dam pissed la.so nt only i walked bac whr i came n i oso nidda walk further dwn u noe,till River Valley Road.den it didnt end thr.i had 2 w8 outside e lanshop 4 10+min till his game was finished you noe n he said it's gonna b a 1-min tink.zzz.PEKCHEK!but den e dealin was fs n i enjoyed e air-con inside while he blurly typed in e stuff i gave in.no i meant i had 2 type e stuff in 4 him cuz he's so blur=)yup e deal was dn n i took a bus to dhoby ghaut.
istana gt open today to the public=)
first,i went Daiso get some stuff but nt alot thou it's cheap luh n yup nt tt nice luh.den i gt a drink oso cuz im bloody thirsty fm breakfs.
THEN,i went to e art shop n MET MATILDA!(humph!muz b matilda stalk me 1 luh!=p)den bought e glitter which is $5 around and e alphabets which is $10 about n gt tis membership?T_T no la it's free 1 luh,i bet they gv it practically 2 every1 T_T
lunched at Long John Silver's.n matilda dun allow me to juz poke e chicken(=p)n juz eat,instead she tell me cut n eat e chicken.lol,so troublesome!n e tinks keep flyin around at first =p but im a fs learner k!=p
den met Boon Hui at bugis mrt.wen Iluma.den i brought Matilda in2 e toilet.
den aft tt celebrated Matilda's bdae at somewhr la hur =p
it was wad cookies accordin 2 crystal but lyk 1 cm thick =p mayb wasnt tt successful hur but tt's nt e pt!=p den watched Cloudy and the Meatballs?
3D cartoon movie.
actually e specs quite annoyin cuz durin e movie i keep pushin it up so will b nicer 2 lk at =)
n if u take out e screen will b blured.cnt c.e show is abt tis inventor hu cre8ed trouble but in e end managed 2 clear it up.so he's a failure as an inventor la but e gd tink is,he gt a galfwen in e end luh.
Geeks r knowledgeble and they help you with your homework.haha,i read tis in e newspaper once b4 =p
e movie was pretty funny but still nt funny to e max.i tink i cnt appreciate some cartoons =(
but UP was a nice one thou =)
aft tt dined at some ice-cream shop.
and got tis rxn happened.jesslyn was sayin abt mr chris chan in charge of hip-hop tt's gonna b dn as post-exam activity.den natasha wen HUH den matilda HUH den crystal HUH very FUNNY!cuz it's lyk 1 aft e other 1,haha n jesslyn n i were laughin but she laughed more vigourously.heh.n beaunice said sth luh but i cnt say oso =p
I think when something has already occured,one should look towards the direction of finding a solution even though this is rather difficult to achieve =)
wen Bugis Junction take neoprints.took twice.e first was unglam n second was more glam.heh.
its was lyk rl fun takin neoprints inside e machine,n i discovered a new way of takin neoprints thou.handphones!
heh =x
mm..but i wan BIG ones too!=p
dined at Swensons.
then hm.hais.made it a pt 2 finish my anime today.but.well.its alr midnite.fs hur..

fri
wen 4 badminton in e mornin.
den out w Parvathy&Lena 2 vivocity.
walao w8ed 4 them dam long outside Candy Empire can,but i was just sms-in ppl la.haha,it was around 2.30pm.i rld dunno,fm home until thr all e while i was just sms-in luh.keke.
den we decided 2 get tics 4 Imagine That cuz we'd tot it'll b a rl comedy.but anw aft tt we wen shoppin n ice-cream-in at Swensons Earle's.
k,gt tis eh bag sales in e mid of nowhr la.den we went thr lk cuz lena wanted 2 get a bag.den parvathy gt a small bag cuz she find her big one too bulky,so she e buy e small bag alr she juz throw e big one away.haha,e funny part was wen we were tryin 2 squeeze it in2 e plastic bag n we were in e mid of lyk eh gt ppl la,haha.but still,we managed 2 succeed n "discretly" threw e bag in2 e dustbin which was a dist away la =p
mm..we ordered e sizzling pan.its nt bad la but i juz dun lyk bananas hur=p i mean ok la,jus i dun eat them =p n gt some funny tinks occured la but cnt say =p
lena's bro very funny,wan2 rite some argumentative then dunno how dramatise so enlisted help of clara indirectly and some super boring sentence came 2 life,seriously,hahas!
1 irritatin tink abt e movie was e gal havin imaginary fwens but i juz cnt c any.zzz.n its lyk e whole movie is juz tryin 2 convey some 2pid msg n little comedy.thus,i do not recommend ppl on catching tis movie,ty.=)
den its was lyk evenin alr wen we finished e movie.so we wen DIVA 2 get my ring n they wen 2 hav their candlelit dinner by e poolside luh.for more info pls approach them =p

thurs
went sch discuss open hse.
den out w queenie.haha i lyk smuggled myself inside or sth liddat lol
lyk i camouflaged myself w e rest of e s3 thr =p
n e wad lit elec qn was sth weird lyk "How is the children's attempt to lure Boo Radley out touching?"
anw so we went to orchard.
walked at ION and e burger king thr had tis black outlook w eh bronze words?i oso dunno y they hav 2 make till SO diff 2 c anw it feels lyk its a "cooking place" they design till liddat since.lol.
THEN,tt place lyk caters 2 sec students cuz ION high-class place so students go eat e fsfd thr =p is tt e reason y burger king is setted u thr?=p anw its x 2 eh hav a shop in ION luh =/
queenie lyks ZARA.haha.
oh.wen we were on B3 i tink,we wanted go in2 TopShop but wen we goin in time,e guy said "Welcome to TopMan" so queenie tot wrong shop ma.so she said "Shit,wrong shop" then we out.den out alr she realised tt TopShop and TopMan r actually connected.haha.so in e end we wen in2 TopShop fm e B2.keke.
den we walk wisma atria.n queenie wanna go in2 e buildin,on top,which i alr said nth much c but she dun wanna believe me..grr..
n it was rainin..=(so cnt walk outside.
but anw hu wanna walk outside luh,it'll b hot!=p
oh oh and e 破洞bear is cute luh!!dam cute la!
then we went Heeren,to find sth.i tink.oh n queenie was findin her wallet thruout tis whole "quest"/shoppin.
anw we found it at fourskins,thou it may nt b e exact 1 she has in mind,but i was lyk "OMG THIS IS DAMN NICE DAMN NICE" den she juz decided 2 geddit n she gt me e same 1 too cuz she say owe me belated bdae present.yay!
its rly dam nice luh =)
den we decided to walk to Far East Plaza to find her shorts.jeans type but didnt managed 2 geddit in e end.saw my shirt on ofer.m gonna geddit cuz mummy says yes.keke.
oh n i nidda get some eh shirts too =p n a flimsy bag!n a long pencilcase?o.o cuz gt 2 many stuff le =(
den we walked 2 eh we wanted catch a movie cuz pretty bored n tired.so we decided 2 take a train fm orchard 2 somerset.but i took her on2 e wrong train so in e end we went 2 Novena instead.keke.i didnt even lked,i saw e train come i juz went in2 e train.keke.
so wen we came out fm somerset mrt,queenie scolded me agn cuz she said we cld hav juz taken a bus rite dwn n nt wasted time in e mrt stations.
oops!=p
but den wen we reached Cathay Orchard dun hav any nice shows leh.so we juz sit on e chairs outside e theatre,haha.

2009-10-14T17:21:00.000-07:00

EOYS ARE OVER!
the physic paper is e hardest i feel haha fail then juz retake luh =(

lunch at toa payoh hub Mac's.
when you plan to fail,you fail to plan, according to Aliah.=p
and Natasha thought that by upsizing you get a bigger burger=p
oh oh and her face was so red at 1 point of time.

then some disgraceful ppl jumped in e mrt 2 c if e flow would carry them along.hehe.

ytd went on an expedition to find marina barrage!
haha.
we thought supposed to alight at city hall to go there.so we walked to esplanade and then we asked tis policeman.haha.e policeman dunno say which direction den wad take bus or sth.i think we didnt believe his words la so we went 2 ask some random guy n ice-cream man.aft tt we walked 2 SG Flyer.
oh n i was feelin jumpy at some point of time.keke.
i think we were just a little crazy aft e exams.keke.
oh tt's nt all!
when we reached e flyer we went in2 tis eh yakult wad forest yea.haha cuz we still cnt reach e place!
LY wanted 2 introduce e waterfall n she was walking to e left when we were all going 2wards e rite,n tts whr it was.haha.
den sumhw we asked e person @ e counter whr is e place den e person said is at e OMFG we muz walk bac 2 esplanade or take a bus but e road is 1-way street so cnt, or @ least take mrt to MARINA BAY!from flyer we cn c e river?den its lyk 1 whole circle surroundin e waters?den is lyk diagonally fm us but we cnt go str8 thr cuz of highways/construction/waters.hais.so we WALK all e way bac 2 esplanade den 2 raffles city mrt.
den i parted my way thr w e rest cuz i'd decided 2 b a nice soul n peii LY hm.haha.
as 4 rest,im still nt sure whether they reached thr la.hehe.

idk i cnt rly rmb e conversatns but i only knew it was a cost-savin n fun day.haha.cuz usually @ city hall i'd b in e air-con areas n nt outside ma,so its definitely a diff experience.

on geog elec paper i ran out of papers den i raise my hand and innocently?lked at e teacher rite in front of me la.WALAO!he dont wanna walk 2 me n gv me e papers leh i stare @ him 4 lyk quite a while den i pekchek den i turn 2 e teacher behind.then she quicly gimme my paper.i tink tt teacher gt attitude prob.cuz aft tt i studied bio den 1/2way he juz went 2 bang e gate of e door cuz fm which ever angle u lked it it u cn oso c tt its LOCKED!
zzz

i hope my sub teachers dun get 2 mark my papers,maybe they'll juz b driven to death.keke.

coach owes ice-cream!and celine doesnt have a share!haha!

i want to learn how to tie a tie.i want to learn some origami.i want to watch animes.i want to go and run.i want to start getting geared up for trainings.i want to go for chalets.i want horror/thriller movies.i want time.=)

i think i got events daily except for coming saturday till next thursday.idk if its a good or bad thing?haha.it should be good!

rushing off..

1.23p.m.

2009-09-22T07:24:00.000-07:00

I WAS ONLY LATE FOR 3 MIN N COACH KEEP HARPIN ON IT T_T
so it was 1.23pm when i reached thr n he keep tellin me off 4 lyk 4min++ T_T
ROAR~!
anw it was squeezy on sun!hehe.e little boy+momo+jesslyn+natasha[extra.keke]
momo:it's always e conversatn btw tis 2 tt we cnt understand
oops.
natasha was havin such a diff. time conversin w coach haha rl funny only cnt rmb nowsxz
n natasha cn play badminton 0.0 lyk OK 4 beginner luh 0.0
ohoh i was uber happy today =D cheerszx!
n n he always hab 2 call me ans qn wen idk/nt payin attentn 1 zzz
oh.sum1 wrote e reason 4 y gt rats&roaches @ lift lobby is cuz rainin so they nid take shelter
=)!

2009-09-18T06:16:00.000-07:00

wed
bio+spin

thurs
horrible terrible pass time by phy lessons+okay trg
[i find it diff 2 do single drills nw =/ lyk so awkward 0.0]

FRI!!!
went out w beaunice to city hall.
went suntec eat the waffles.the place was lyk cosy n thrs post-its everywhr.lyk coolsxz..den atmosphere quite nice luh.e waffle i eatin keep drippin!wen we wen thr eat time nobody.AFT we finish lyk abt hald e place filled up liao.lol.
lol beaunice had guides stuff in e mornin @ queens-sth sch n told junior its @ queens-anothersth sch so in e end e poor junior wen 2 another sch n teachers laughed @ her haha super blur day!=p
den wen marina watch UP its a gd fantasy movie thou im nt e fantasy kinda person.
balloons!dam nt realistic but quite fantasy-nice.its lyk e movie emphasised on human relation ties liddat n etc.i lyk e part wen e old guy+wife days.quite nice.n kelvin e bird is funny,e dog oso =p.haha male became female voice 4 e top dog.
-collar of shame.
wen dinnerin at Ministry of Food[MOF]
i didnt noe e menu is under e table 1 wad.u oso nvr tell me.hmph!e ice-cream is nice i mean e mango ice?w/o cream @ least =p
oh yes den we were lyk @ suntec @ 7.40pm liddat n e show is lyk 8pm so we walked thr super fs!cuz tt day gt comex+singtel exhibition so super crowded @ tt time alr.cha0 diff squeeze thru.
walkin quickly den tis tall guy i front of me n didnt noe beihind gt tis shorty n wen tall guy walk 2 e side e shorty came lyk real close 2 my face n all e time i juz stare @ him den he wen "sry,sry"ahha
wen 2 watched JUMP its super coolsxz...!!its lyk real funny e ahgong takes lyk dam long 2 go up juz 5 steps.i lyk e romance element of e show thou.haha.lyk e stunts they do r rl cool 0.0 they cn do it lyk super fs luh juz cuz they're professionals ma =p Scene1:welcomin guest.e 1st person came was e drunken uncle n he isnt supposed 2 come luh.n he strt strippin.haha.so e rest ham-tan him.e 2nd person came is e rl visitor.den he's lyk wearin specs den e ahgong wan him n daughter marry.i tink he act super tough cuz wen he take out spec he muz change 2 a whole new diff character.lyk he's super toot w specs but pro-er w/o specs.
TEST.
i cannot rly rmb le la den gt burglar came in e fight.ahha wen they fight fs den they replay again in slow motion.heheh.
den aft tt beaunice very tired so juz wen hm str8 =p

ytd ytd durin el lesson.gt tis compo tink den idk cnt come up w title wad but came up e it liao so muz recognise my efforts ma.wen up strted by wantin say title.lin stop me n said tis is wad we shldnt do wen e title has alr been given 2 us lol.but still i wen on w my title.
lin:wad another 2 reaplce sky turning dark?
me:its not bright
lin:another one
me:black
den yanxin was lyk -falling- but den i was kinda lyk enjoyin myself up thr luh.heheh.
i dun tink eng wld call me in class anymore.
oh n i juz realised sum1 else is very 4getful=p
ytd rite durin cl lesson teacher ask y cheena scholar read dic but we dun.my reason is cuz they hav 2 family here so tt y no nid spend time w family so much cuz dun meet frequently but we here in SG lyk spend was quality time w family etc.n yes u c my reason so long but i only said 因为她们没有家人den she cut me off!n turn my reason in2因为她们没有家人所以就看书?
haha its so funny but @ e same time i feel so arghh cuz its such a drastic change but i cnt stop laughin oso tt time!=p

wth is tis

2009-09-08T04:12:00.000-07:00

This is a boring and meaningless holiday.

last fri out n bought e latest nike bottle=)
cuz cldnt find e other design =(
queenie cldn't find her wallet/bag=(
jesslyn stomachache=(<--cab home.leave me behind =(

2pid eng call us bac juz 2 teach Double/Half Angle Formula n i still dun understand!!!

loser irene wen hikin.=p

i pulled my nerve?agn.but im used 2 it.i guess.

confused?seasonal headaches?unclear?blur?forgetful?

2009-09-03T07:40:00.000-07:00

mon was actually ok no offence but sch time was really borin..
out 2 vivocity w clara lena beaunice natasha fun=) cuz they're nice ppl =)
eh nvr go bac pri sch cuz nobody goin zzz ls min cancel=2 teachers day bo bac liao hoho
watched The Proposal.mayb watch UP another day w Beau 0o
clara cnt eat chicken =p
natasha lurb e chips w e cheese which i cnt rmb wad alr LOL!
so in e end me n lena eat e popcorn nia haha
den we keep touchin ea other hand when we wan take e popcorn haha
clara n me find e show gt nth 2 cry 4 but nat cry alot?ok i cnt really rmb but yea
den wen walk
go eh tis shop which i always tot lked quite ok fm outside but clothes always nt suitable me 1.
den ea take 1 dress n wear haha but in e end i oso nvr wear keke
ya..so long bo go Candy Empire miss young days =(
i mean children days =p
ate icecream,wen body shop,n places luh =p
den tis COOL Gerographic sth shop e animal pics quite nice i attracted 2 them keke esp e Cats ones miaow~!
i wan a pink flimsy hand bag 0.0 big one cuz i only gt small de =(

teachers day.chionged math notes mornin.aftnoon visited ex tution teacher!yay!den wen badminton.den visited her agn!yay!
LOL!
made baked rice 4 her.=p ty alena =p
den tok w her n 2 other fwens 4 2-3 hours...but time flies seh..

tried 2 do as much math on wed but still cmi!

stuck w many many hwk++cl compo++alot alot alot la!!!tmw!

2pid Beau gt so many tinks but in e end still go hm earlier den me T_T

i tink 2day math-in nt only we tired he oso tired luh tt hw i feel n i tink mayb he did e 2 sets of notes tis mornin one =p w regards 2 his laziness n hence all e mistakes?0o n ya cn c he very tired wanna slp oso but still gt cheer up e class lyk 4pm in e aftnoon ask hw many professns do tt eh?
heh.crappin?

goin wisma w queenie n jesslyn tmw.aimin 4 a black nike 500ml polycarbonate water bottle.orchard gt many sports + nike shops ma =p
but gotta hm n put stuff change b4 cn out but tink parents wld allow l8 hm since hols alr le by den =p

cl compo+bio c.t. gettin bac tmw + c phy teacher

wow.wad a way 2 end term 3 n awaitin a fake hol.=p.

wad's wrong w me mansxz.sth real wrong 4 e past wk n i juz noe it..

SPORTS DAY IS SUCCESSFUL =P

2009-08-30T03:19:00.000-07:00

SPORTS DAY!
press came.interviewed zhiying+mr goh.
http://www.razor.tv/site/servlet/segment/main/news/local/razortop5/35310.html
its thr e video but on papers its 2day's CATS Classified page C4
ok den i pangseh queenie n apparantly she's unhappy i guess?

low blood glucose levels?WTF?

2009-08-29T11:04:00.000-07:00

wed chionged wadeva durin lesson
home made e presents =p irene stayed till lyk 8pm help me hoho thank you!
oh oh and i noe hw 2 tie ribbon nicely alr!
perfection is imperfection

thurs gt freakin amath check paper aft sch
e F-in HellZ he alr noe i did badly liao still wanna ask me ans qn in class n b4 tt so deliberately stare at me say scores of others lol den of cos i buaysong la of cos wun ans wad he ask la
lol he provoke me 1st 1 lol
if im feelin anymore nastier i cld totally hav ignored tt qn luh zzz but being a pretty nice soul @ tt moment i juz turned n ask irene yes or no den gave it as simply as it is =)
but wadeva i totally was attitude-in aft Egeog tt day 0o
n he's freakin naggy T_T

sports day.
clara sick =(
lactic acid killin me by cca relay =(
shall get better teams nxt yr.keke.c la gt time ma =p
every1 seems 2 hav been workin so hard juz 4 tis day 0.0
ROSE CHEER WON~!
lol i juz realise i cnt say wad we've toked abt at bishan supermart =p
went home napped 1h~~~
out.meet-up.collect present.buy box.home.FEEL SICK.
mornin.cnt go trg =(((
still feelin tired.its 2.17am.
but cuz of coffee my eyes juz cnt close =p
sorethroat.low blood glucose levels=giddyness.flu.going cough?idk lol

West Aussie!

muz freakin buck-up 4 amath.el=no hope.mm..chem muz cont strive hard.mm..bio if fail oso bo bian la=)cl muz work alittle bit harder..humanities=leave to fate.1 month!JY!
if nt 1 mth l8r kena lecture fm him or other ppl agn zzz

feelin really nt gd..

fast blog~~

2009-08-25T07:09:00.000-07:00

sun didnt go 4 trg cuz i tink i train quite hiong so @ least wanna keep 2 e 1wk curfew 1st

mon no joggin gt briefin in hall!=p
2pid kang com dwn durin 1st period 1st day of wk
=p

oh i tink i still nidda get another pack of swts cuz i tink is nt enuf =(

2day heckcare went 4 trg
den did e high knee jumps den tink strain abit la HECKCARE liao zz very tired nw zz duncare cont juz go 4 trg =p
2day gt e skills bo combi tink nxt trg muz do on combi oso
overall 1 wk bo play still gt skills+run abit=haii ha0 le =p
ya MUZ DO BETTER~

TINK NEUTRAL.
trick shots strain ur wrist abit more luh tt all =)
abt 100+ high knee jumps?0o

2009-08-22T02:53:00.000-07:00

OMFG!i 4got to do e presents!n i went to sleep!

2009-08-22T02:45:00.000-07:00

went bac 4 p.t. trg 2day.run to kallang mrt n bac.ok la.shall nt comment.heh.so many traffic lights n y.t.+p.y. didnt noe whr 2 go in e end =p
ok so e buyer ask me help tink lies cuz he short of S$55.zzz.i gv alot la.lol!den he say i billiant 0o but actually i dun care if xcuses r brilliant or nt juz gv me muaii $ cn liao =p
very tired leh came bac fm trg =/
i dun tink will b goin 4 trg tmw cuz idk still decidin cuz me check-up is on mon n person say cnt jump vigourously.scared i'll 4get =/
i tink i will go 2 lanshop ltr cuz lappie unsteady =/ hope it works =)

300th post.

2009-08-21T01:09:00.001-07:00

mon had dunno dunno wad la lol
basically i didnt noe hw 2 draw mod graphs,do phy tough qns,screwed bio.
wed went ps,thomson plaza,AMK Hub,bugis 2 get gifts :)
nw i gt another gift which e person is still makin den i collect nxt wk while i settle my account try by tonite so i cnt gv e buyer asap :) SS150 :) if deal la.
k e person juz replied me tt if i get e ls tink rdy den cn deal liao.yay :) hope all goes well :)
ytd was doin alot of research for e ls gift n findin buyer.previous nite oso.tt y so tired durin lessons =p
2day was quire interestin w 2 labs.sheng lao shi is very very funny!ahhas.wu lao shi made me climb dwn fm 3rd floor to humanities rm n bac 2 4th lvl 3C classrm zzz juz cuz e gal hus injured is HCL de zzz
cl listernin is on wk 10 wed lesson time 0.0 makin IC?
even thou e trainee phy teacher oso nt gd bt @ least better than tan!zzz
it was rainin freakin heavy but i had 2 reach hm asap den e front 1/2 of my bag includin contents were flooded zzz
mdm goh so nice gv us presents actually idk e reason oso.lolx.
hais..they doin p.t. tmw.w/o me!:(
*sniff*hope recover soon den cn bac trg n hopefully in time 4 sport's day :(

:LY.ya.every1 has muscles:)

o yes.e leg muscle nt pain liao but e spine is zzz..

thigh muscle..

2009-08-16T03:37:00.000-07:00

whoo~trg 2day den.............pull/tear my muscle=p
i dun tink is sprain 0.0
=( i hope i cn go 2 trg soon..............
tue-trg
wed-10x80m
thurs-trg
fri-200m
sat-rot at home 0.0
sun-trg-=( muscle tear?
mm muscle tear lyk more serious 0.0 so i tink is muscle pull but coach keep tell me bo diff de 0.0
very pain.............
at home nth 2 apply de haha
my mum went 4 NDR so me home alone =(
my aunt say want come dunno whr she nw =(
pain pain cnt climb stairs shyt =( y is my class on 3rd storey =(
im gonna fail amath =(
geog n bio is very dry 2 memorise/study/revise for =(
oh no tis post gt so so many =(
=(
im lyk blastin my music 4 no reason perharps juz im immune 2 it alr =(
oh yea my dad juz reminded me abt run so mm..cnt run =/
hais!!!!
zzz!
oh yes cuz i cnt climb stairs so coach had 2 send me home =p
overhead bridge leh!i climb e stairs 2 e stage alr wanna cry liao luh juz nw =(
*sniff
~all about us,run away if we must~
oh yes.cuz i tap alr.den i come bac.wanted jump in front 2 tap agn since shuttle came up.so i jump liao tap liao -IMPACT- zzz den tt hw i kena luh =(
den i went pharmacy myself but den..............gt sh0 many wadeva muscle medi till i c liao blur even pharmacist nt around sumore so i gv up n went home.zzz.celine say i super suay 2day =( i tink so too 0.0
i really really tink i cnt go 4 e comin joggin session pe trg =(
i love chemistry!
ok super random 0.0
-DON'T THINK WIN OR LOSE,THINK NEUTRAL-

2009-08-15T01:04:00.000-07:00

omg ytd i was dwn e moment i hit my bed
n nw my neck hurts...
n they playin 2pid national day sngs sumwhr nw
shoelaces!
so much content for c.t...
my neck is lyk seriously achin w headaches ah~!

a special wk 4 me =) i believe it'll b even specialer in e comin wks yay =)

2009-08-14T03:46:00.000-07:00

k im very proud of myself cuz i'd juz saved 1 whole wk of allowance =)

omg i i was so caught up on mon tt i didnt get 2 go 2 e gatherin saded!1 yr c once .. =(

tue trg by simon was tirin..

i practically didnt study much fm tue 2 fri lolx..

went 4 10x80m on wed cuz i tot i "shun bian" since i tot gt 4x400m lol den [but actuaally no hav la] we made 2 mistakes was 2s away fm 3rd

relays r fun =)

lol tt day i ran 100m w amanda den she was lyk 1-2s in front of me---which was 2 wks ago

den 2day ran 200m w her agn n i was lyk quite far behind.

moral of e story?careful nt 2 strain ur muscles b4 races =)

trg on thurs by coach kel was slack agn =(

ok xcept 4 e attackin part.

n jo-ann is much taller den me n so i cnt c =( lyk really if i bend dwn.hav 2 wad.

i hope Rose wld win =)

i lk 4ward 2 aft c.t.s cuz i've gt so much tinks planned out aft tt=)

national day around the corner..

2009-08-07T21:57:00.000-07:00

hehe funny 2 c nat on hp tokin cl =p
im incomprehensible she said well i shld juz reply her w a postcard =)
i lyk e NewUrbanMale orange bag!
but i oso lyk my current bag!<3
G.I.Joe is very eh computerised.lol.i believe i prefer other thriller movies.its really too computerised 4 me lol i felt lyk im watchin a digiterised?supposed cn watch show on my com.heh.lol.cuz i usually watch on comx ma.
i hope Rose cheer will b successful =)

to do+buy in decreasin urgencies-budget
-pavathy's bdae present-$15[time left 1-2weeks]
-_____________for cheer+my team-$15[time left 3wk]
-towel+box+letter?-$30[time left 3.5wk]
-badminton de?mm..idk hw they wanna go abt doin it oso[time left 3.5wk]
-beau special bdae[brooch?]0.0-KIV[time left 5wk]
subtotal:$60+1KIV
>save all $ for comin 3 wks

my stuff
-jigsaw puzzle necklace[i]special[i]
-box for neos
-heels[still haven find nice de =/][time left 5wk]
-n may boots if gt nice de

wants
-BIGGER PENCILCASE!

people owe me
-coin box!
-$10 for broom[really cnt stand it so gettin brooms 4 badminton!]

2pid melanie!i rite her letter durin double math period den went her class den fwens say she went home alr liao..2pid!!
but anw..double math was a dam killersxz mansxz.esp w eh *cough cough* heh.

OMG!national day celeb was a gd tink.it's better than nth joanne=)it's better than nth..

2009-08-06T08:19:00.001-07:00

everything is so slow...today...it sucks.....

2009-08-04T03:32:00.000-07:00

ok..blogger is normal agn..
n i realise i hav alotta gifts n letters 2 do!
teachers,bdaes,sport's day,sister..
its alot ok 0.0
OMFG!lessons r gettin borin..dam..muz peservere on still..
pictures..letters..towels..
trg was ok hahas.
speed footwork.e 4th time im supposed say"4th set Go" is nt i purposely wanna hav a break in btw e words 1 k is i alr very soft liao n chuan so idk y say halfway den no sound come out.nt my fault luh!but e ppl very enthu.hahas.haven say go they strt doin halfway liao lol.
dentist help me eh cover up e 2 holes so bacteria wun go in.i tink she nt very skillful cuz i cn c fm mirror whr xactly she did.cuz actually 4 others quite hard c cuz e hole is behind e front teeth so u nidda be ME hu sees my teeth everyday den will noe e change de 0.0 lol?
WTF!walk fm pp mrt to cedar pri seh.wakao!4gt 61 cn go nearer.zzz.
i tink yang lives serangoon tt area?0o.
when go home fm cedar pri met tis old lady hu is shorter than me by 3/4 head n she stare @ me lyk im sum freak liddat.den ask whether cedar mvr bac liao n when mvr bac.den ask which pri sch i come fm.say ccps.den she say she used 2 teach thr.taught ms kwok when she is in pri1.i nearly gt taught by her in p6.she's a very gd psle teacher in tt sch.such a waste me didnt get her.but she usually teach e lousier classes 2 help them "up" n she is FIERCE.
HL chocolate milk.
cel cnt sms in cl T_T

thats it!thats its!OMG!OMG!cnt w8!cnt w8!

2009-08-03T06:37:00.000-07:00

ok sat i woke up at 12noon =p

sun i woke up at 8AM OK =D

ok..wkends were borin T_T
aft recess 2day was boring too..
damnit.
cl ct TMR!
zzz.tian xie han zi?

ah!!i gt sumtink i wanna do alr.heh heh.
hoho!zha0 da0 le.keke!
juz a few more wks n more savings..keke =))

eh.basically.well.nt SEL lesson luh.juz sumtimes i myself m wad e poem depicts or wadeva n i realise tt most ppl r juz e way it states.
yea tt sums?

1st heats

2009-07-31T06:05:00.000-07:00

sport's day was ytd
took part in 4x100m,second runner changed w yn ls min lol
i tink e nxt time i run 4x100m i shld stand nearer 2 Ac line 2 receive baton n gv baton earlier 2 yn.even 0.wadeva seconds r precious 2 yea.
100m was 16.3s i tink e ls time i ran it was in s1 which was 16.5s liddat lol nt much improvement le luh?0o.
anw quite a no. of fun tinks occured ytd luh.
we missed bus26 nid w8 lyk 15min.yn asked whether wanna run but i say dun wan.den mins b4 nxt bus come den chai came 2 e bustop luh happy 4 sum1.*whistles.partly thnx 2 me k.hehsxz.
heh den ppl were usin umbrellas 2 prac relay.hehsxz.hahas.
i dun rly noe advs of no. which runners as they run whr.0.0
relay is FUN!
yn was sick leh!sumore she ran 3 events seh 0.0 but i tink she stand a chance[gd] in 400m.cuz she came in 1st 4 her heat n only gt 2 heat 0.0
walao!gt 9 teams den gt tis heat cuz only 8 teams cn go in2 finals.zzz.
gt tis team kena disqualified.i tink is 1st runner wanna pass baton 2 second runner but 2nd runner run out of e box alr.so 2nd runner juz squat n c 1st runner as if dunno wad 2 do.den i tink mr sim near her said "get up la" or sth liddat.den 2nd runner took baton fm 1st runner n cont runnin.in e end her team came in 1st 4 e heat but they kena disqualified cuz nt as if ppl dun hav eyes rite?lol.
den tis other team.1st runner pass baton 2 2nd runner alr.1st runner 2 hyper den keep jumpin n wanna cheer 4 2nd runner but jumped outa lane.nw dunno her team qualified or nt lolx.i tink i shld go n c e board 4 e events 1 c whether they gt e results anot but if hav den he wld announce i tink?0o.
den almost so many teams were lyk freakin over whether broke rules anot la.
den went home time went bustop.sarah went up bus liao.den i was lyk so sad cuz im alone =(
den......................................
saw MRS CHAIW!
i went mrs chaiw.MRS CHAIW!
den went strt tokin.LOL!
she nw teachin bio @ IJTP den she nt goin come 4 sport's day cuz she hinted she nt close w e sch alr.lolx.
100m cn b intensive eh?
slept early.11.tot i nidda more slp?but zzz i 4gt i CNT slp early.i nid 2 slp l8 de......
den in e end coffee didnt work on me 2.i scared is dose nt enuf 4 me alr den nidda change agn....
den ya i was super low e whole day.until lyk nw..=/i tink my eyes r lyk closin hintin i nidda slp or sth liddat but NO.dont b deceived!~lol ltr tmw ya'll feel super low agn.lolx.IM WEIRD!0o.
den mum say mayb tmw go out w me find heels.bro gt idk wad.sth close 2 flu?hahas.tmw go c a better doc cuz doc near my hse lousy de zzz
ok.im done w here nw alr.

i rly dun understand hw i shld tink of anonymous.anw queenie?SEL lesson?yea?u mean e poem?or wad?0.0
anw.i tink.typin short=less time wasted.[as long as i rite my compo nicely cn alr rite]n anw has a rite 2 read/nt read.rites rite?lol or wadeva ya mite tinkin it b.i dun c anytink wrong w my style n im a busy person.i try n blog[recreational activity]n any1 has a rite 2 read/nt read it.

tis yr express urself day was lousier than ls yr's =/ tis mornin i juz practically took a shirt n short fm my closet matched a slipper n went sch luh?lol.but in my impressn most is e devil gal luh.

ok.done w here alr =)

[i]I Just Wanna Live[i]

Masks

2009-07-29T02:51:00.000-07:00

Please Hear What I'm Not Saying

Don't be fooled by me.
Don't be fooled by the face I wear
For I wear a mask, a thousand masks,
Masks that I'm afraid to take off

Pretending is an art that's second nature with me,
but don't be fooled,
for God's sake don't be fooled.
I give you the impression that I'm secure,
that all is sunny and unruffled with me,
within as well as without,
that confidence is my name and coolness my game,
that the water's calm and I'm in command
and that I need no one,
but don't believe me.

My surface may be smooth but
my surface is my mask,
ever-varying and ever-concealing.
Beneath lies no complacence.
Beneath lies confusion, and fear, and aloneness.
But I hide this. I don't want anybody to know it.
I panic at the thought of my weakness exposed.
That's why I frantically create a mask to hide behind,
a nonchalant sophisticated facade,
to help me pretend,
to shield me from the glance that knows.

But such a glance is precisely my salvation,
my only hope, and I know it.
That is, if it is followed by acceptance,
If it is followed by love.
It's the only thing that can liberate me from myself
from my own self-built prison walls
from the barriers that I so painstakingly erect.
It's the only thing that will assure me
of what I can't assure myself,
that I'm really worth something.
But I don't tell you this. I don't dare to. I'm afraid to.

I'm afraid you'll think less of me,
that you'll laugh, and your laugh would kill me.
I'm afraid that deep-down I'm nothing
and that you will see this and reject me.

So I play my game, my desperate, pretending game
With a façade of assurance without
And a trembling child within.
So begins the glittering but empty parade of Masks,
And my life becomes a front.
I tell you everything that's really nothing,
and nothing of what's everything,
of what's crying within me.
So when I'm going through my routine
do not be fooled by what I'm saying.
Please listen carefully and try to hear what I'm not saying,
what I'd like to be able to say,
what for survival I need to say,
but what I can't say.

I don't like hiding.
I don't like playing superficial phony games.
I want to stop playing them.
I want to be genuine and spontaneous and me
but you've got to help me.
You've got to hold out your hand
even when that's the last thing I seem to want.
Only you can wipe away from my eyes
the blank stare of the breathing dead.
Only you can call me into aliveness.
Each time you're kind, and gentle, and encouraging,
each time you try to understand because you really care,
my heart begins to grow wings --
very small wings,
but wings!

With your power to touch me into feeling
you can breathe life into me.
I want you to know that.
I want you to know how important you are to me,
how you can be a creator--an honest-to-God creator --
of the person that is me
if you choose to.
You alone can break down the wall behind which I tremble,
you alone can remove my mask,
you alone can release me from the shadow-world of panic,
from my lonely prison,
if you choose to.
Please choose to.

Do not pass me by.
It will not be easy for you.
A long conviction of worthlessness builds strong walls.
The nearer you approach me
the blinder I may strike back.
It's irrational, but despite what the books may say about man
often I am irrational.
I fight against the very thing I cry out for.
But I am told that love is stronger than strong walls
and in this lies my hope.
Please try to beat down those walls
with firm hands but with gentle hands
for a child is very sensitive.

Who am I, you may wonder?
I am someone you know very well.
For I am every man you meet
and I am every woman you meet.

another wk yet agn term3 always flies

2009-07-25T09:00:00.000-07:00

mon
stayed home 2 idk hw try study 4 el oral?wtf

tue
el oral w mr sng.who e fucking hellz keeps noddin his head 4 20times in a converstatn?i tried my utmost best 2 lk @ e examiner alr k den he didnt even lk @ me zzz so i pekchek liao oso no 1 lk @ him liao den as i tok i was sorta lkin arount lol
1st lesson w e cl teacher was HELLZ idk its my 1st impressn/mentality or wadeva la further pekchek me when she release ur l8 n wanna retain us 4 some lessons oso lol
ended 4+ den went chinatown w Beau.went tis cool art shop cuz she wanna buy ink 4 typewriter.we search e place 4 long cuz she dunno whr it is T_T den is we overshot e place liao.Cub Street.hahas.shelters r nice.lolx =p n her sis was irrtated cuz she called her 4 times 2 ask whr e place is lol den we kept askin 4 directns.oh n asked tis lady fm some hotel whr will go cub street den she say go thr turn leftx4.den aft tt i went:isnt tt a circle? LOL!
e ppl @ e shop seems nice lolx 0.0
but in e end she didnt bought e ink cuz its pretty old n most prob it wun work =/ no more typewriting?0.0
den went ps to get my bk n MORE THAN WORDS CLOSE DWN so cnt get comb..=/my currently de is lyk gonna gonna gonna rly rly rly cnt b used anymore soonsxz zzz
den went e art shop thr n she gt 3 white boxes @ a discounted price k lol is due to ME den she'll even b able 2 lk/find e white boxes 1 k hehz =p

wed
i wanted 2 use tis free day 2 do eh useful tinks de k but due 2 occuring situations,eh somehw i wasted today =) but i am happy =)

thurs
trg w coach kelvin.went l8 cuz e fucking hellz eng make us stay bac 4 juz a F-dam 20min 4 idk wad rly i oh juz 2 pass us papers n yea tt all it shldnt hav taken 20mins de!n crystal didnt wanna leave aft he say cn leave liao lol den make me waste mins sitting in class staring @ e qns LOL
but in e end i cnt take it so i juz pack bag n tell her leave hahas
ooh take temp is 37.4degrees hahas.cnt take excuse of sendin me home eh crystal =p
trg was juz e footwork eh drills slack cuz of e long in btw periods n lol dun tok abt e matches

RMB!if ur partner is nt playin well,u gotta play better.if ur r both ok,u gotta gv it ur best.

fri
chiong home cuz dental
gt my upper retainer made agn liao costs $50 comes fm germany 1 dentist say she hopes tis'll ls longer LOL
my previous 2 ls 6 mths nia T_T so she say germany de is supposedly more durable then e preious Americas 1 i used lolx 0.0
mum had 2 go "catch" bro bac fm playin soccer at 3pm zzz
cld nt take it heckcare everytink n bang bed 11pm

sat
woke up 7am 7.50am i zhun zhun dwnstairs my hse but w8ed 5mins T_T
i tink we gt everytink rdy l8 so 2day shii baii i tink?lol
agility,rotatn footwork,speedo footwork w coach cuz odd no.,multiple shuttlecocks-gotta b fster cuz im 2 slow!im 2 slow!!,match-muz RMB
durin pt felt e speed agn den realise i rly lurb it la lol den eh nidda c clara they wan ma on mon i rly gt no time 2 go n run tis around tis time la damnit.=/
went queensway shoppin centre 2 get my "new" racket den went comcentre 2 get my mum's new hp den went centrept esprit get my shirt cuz gt ofer liao hahas.oh oh we ate at Kiliney Kopitiam their kaya is natural de so e color is light green liddat den gt egg smell which i dun lyk but 4 nt scared egg smell ppl means will lyk e real kaya luh lol but ps i cnt appreciate it de =/ e shop was packed 0.0

r mussels sandy?0.0 LOL
beau gettin cam ma idk
no s4 wanna CCA relay ma?0o
cl oral on comin tue TOK CHINESE!
lol T_T
badminton reflectns haven even lk @ e piece of paper yet lol
jo-ann says ask whether cn take early leave early but fm my POV i feel nt only us gt CCA wad every1 else oso hav so its in a sense wth u wad,special eh?lol idk i juz more "suii he" de heh
ppl were saying tt e trainee math teacher may b better than eng lol
ls phy lesson i juz suddenly felt we were all being alittle mean eh?lyk every1 will hav their limits 1 wad lolx.better nt 2 test it eh?0.0 n wads w us?he will nvr come bac luh.face reality.he's thr @ e whiteboard he's gonna teacher us 4 e rest of e yr.Face it he's nt comin bac anymore so face reality face e truth face e things tt we gotta do do e things we outta do n nt otherwise.
in e end its US takin e exam,no1 else.

ACCEPT.

2009-07-18T20:37:00.000-07:00

SHYT!IM GONNA BE LATE FOR TRG

2009-07-18T07:18:00.001-07:00

i realised nxt yr we slhd get yining 4 sports rep cuz i cn rmb hw ls yr she managed 2 get almost whole class 2 participate in sports days events.hahas.

2009-07-18T07:00:00.000-07:00

i hope the pain in my elbow would go away..and i hope there will not be any other old injuries cropping up tomorrow training again,especially my back,anke and knee..cuz i wanna gv it my BEST

2009-07-18T06:41:00.000-07:00

hoho.it was juz another wk of sch xcept tt its nt any muggin wk.lol.
nevertheless we only study wad we nid 2 study.lol.mdm faridah appears 2 b on 7-day mc!whoops~!its lyk e BEST!
gt freakin no time update..or im juz 2 lazy update.lol.naruto is postponed 4 another wk..
i cnt really mrb wad happened but watch Harry Potter 6 w paarvathy ytd.she's quite nice 2 tok 2 la =) hope e class blog will be upsxz soonsxz
celine still soreeye lol i cldnt recognise her up-close mansxz =XX
tt happened when she wanted me help her buy fd.lol.
still owes Crystal $ but she's e ls alr =)
hehe.
@ least managed get seats 4 e tics k =p
n pig.dun wanna walk 1 =p
o n e cinema was lyk half filled w students.LOL.
thurs i chiong-ed all hwk 4 wkends!
wed went Jesslyn hse bake brownies n is nice luh e Betty Crockers 1 n Mexican wing den e wot gt a HOLE lol n bacons.they added oil cuz her maid said add oil whne bacon inside alr gt oil liao!iheard is no add oil fm her maid luh.o.o
2pid pig dun even noe whether she comin 4 trg tmw+e soreeye celine.lol.
den mahjong!SUPER funny boonhui.hahas.=D
still gt cookies no baked!=p
o n on thurs my hse no tink eat so i eh cook e instant porridge.it states 1min.so i pour water liao den change clothes on tv den bac den open lid.e rice all "broke/open" grr..
i tink i nearly DIED ls sun trg cuz only me n e little boy.2 ppl.stroke hald h,train 1h,match 1h.super chuan @ e beginnin den ltr ok alr.den aft tt is my rite elbow pain F ok.den make me super pekchek when cnt do backhand push.F.den is lyk when i do bachand push den only go 2 e centre only =( weird.0.0 i cn cut overhead but cnt cut 4hand 0.0
hoho.mummy say gonna buy another dress 4 me n shoes!
hope sis cn graduate tis yr.JYs!
hope my bro cn b more obedient.
tis wk he scold geog teacher MAD n OLD BITCH n claims he says tt @ home all day when he is lyk super eh no tink liddat @ home la.so teacher phone mummy den daddy feed him cane.
den 2day he copy sch rules agn...
2day went visit grandma.she appears ok nw thou she needs walking stick.they were cleanin up e fridge when i went thr so eat super lots.lol.
mummy bought me Marks&Spencer sweet.nicesxz.
den had Dark Mocha fm Starbucks.
jesslyn,crystal bh went NDP NE show 2day.frankly,i watch NDP until dun wan watch alr cuz super borin.sumore tis yr is strt l8 n its juz NE show nt even sth lyk preview or actualy.anw is i wan i cn get VIP seats 4 actualy day de but is juz i watch till so SIANSXZ alr lol.is juz some of e goodie bag style tinks i lk 4wards 2 yrly nia.nth alr.anw NE shows e real ppl nt even thr lyk Chen Wei Lian only gt voice recordins lol n lesser fireworks.tis yr e only gd tink is e cannons r near.lol.
i saw u 3 times tis wk =)
anw im F-in hot nw n i F-in cnt watch my anime n i F-in nidda bathe so e F-in Hellz i nidda get outta rm.
JUMP!in SG Esplanade.
yes.eng is gonna b gone i hope some teacher fm sch overtakes n nt some trainee.o darn,cl teacher on course nxt wk den aft tt gt cl oral liao.lol.
eh den takin part in 100m 200m 4x100m 4x400m w YiNing Clara FangLing Jesslyn/replacement
lol some of my fwens r takin part in cheerleadin n only 5 places.0.0 -over my dead body.
i noe la even if i take part 4 events oso wun b able 2 achieve anytink by myself de luh =) jys~

i wonders if you know..

2009-07-11T08:32:00.000-07:00

o coolsxz.i always tot graffiti was 'tu ya' instead of 街道画
tts really lk-in @ it fm diff pts of view 0.0

2009-07-10T08:34:00.001-07:00

we are banned from training.where's the logic?

2009-07-10T07:59:00.000-07:00

I, for one, would find much more meaning from
putting food on the table that is truly needed and
sustaining rather than taken for granted. Food
that I raised or killed myself, or we ourselves,
or my neighbor did, and I bartered with him
for it. Much more so than the meaning Empire
tells me what I am supposed to get from sitting
here in my cubicle (my penultimate day today!)
rearranging little electronic blips in exchange for
money, which I am then supposed to exchange
not only for my sustenance, but also for all sorts
of diversions, to make me forget how meaningless
it all is.
I, for one, will find consolation in knowing
my neighbors - and in knowing that they are
there for me as I am for them, rather than living
amidst strangers, as most all of us do now. I will
find consolation in knowing that my ecological
footprint does not extend beyond my gaze.
That the things I consume do not cause death
and destruction beyond my ability to see and
internalize, rather than out of sight and mind as
now, and so much larger than any being could
ever have a ‘right' to.
I, for one, will find purpose in working closely
and cooperatively and communally with those
around me to provide our own sustenance,
comforts such as they may be, and entertainments
as time allows.
I have no illusions that life post-collapse will be
idyllic, nor that the transition will be anything
but ugly. But neither shall I miss that which
is dying - the dizzying complexity of our oil-drenched
lifestyles, a thousand channels of
nothing worth watching, mega-malls, motor
sports (how many kinds of insane are those!?!),
celebrities, glitter, growth, more, faster, bigger,
keep up with the Joneses but ignore the
sweatshops and the dying ecosystems, consume,
medicate, live large... then die. Where is one to
find a sense of purpose in all of that?

obviously its nt sth i typed.
i tink i feel tired cuz i keep yawnin.zzz.eyes cant keep up w body?its lyk e body cn carry on but e eyes juz keep closin.zzz.it makes me find investigative journalism very very very borin.cnt even carry on w 1 para..

cha-pa-lang day?

2009-07-07T06:43:00.000-07:00

gt bac ch,emath,amath,cl.
yes!pass ch.
emath amath maintained i guess?
cl.marks hit my min target.but i kinda depressed durin cl lesson cuz i noe my mum sure no happy de =( MCQs was my killer *swordszx
oh oh!new phy teacher!abt tay height n old n speak even softer than goh.lol!den nid use mike de 0.0 den he rite is uber proper lang n slow..............lyk i rite 1 my own word he rite 3 words lol so i lyk 1/2-dazin while he ritin.lol.
nt goin sch tmw cuz gt slight fever.lol.even if i go sch oso kena chased bac de.lol.only missin ch n emath tmw.yes!no lyk ch.emath well..bascially...ah.. i'll juz ask abt luh.. =(
hehe.if lin flares up tmw i oso wun b in class worsxz.but bad pt is if she wanna lyk tok 2 me 1 on 1 when i bac den die liao luh.
all my supposedly 4 gd subs marks 4 tis term lyk bac liao so left so-called 3 killer subs alr.bio+el.chem nt supposed 2 b k!n dun wan 2 b!but cuz of e freakin topics n i myself aint 2 gd seh =(
celine oso no sch 2day eh?mum says soreeye nidda 1wk de.0.0 wonders if she is infected by others[suay]or heaty.0.0

2day was a better-off day if i aint sick.zzz.
____!
i wonders if its east cuz go my directn de 0.0
ah..aft 1 long wk of so-called suposed hav sch.ah..____!

2009-07-06T01:44:00.000-07:00

F!!!i juz realise %purity&yield so easy 2 understand!zzz!!

2009-07-06T00:42:00.001-07:00

人的性格在五岁就大致形成。某个人长大到五岁，你细察他的行为，往往能预知他长大后会成市井之徒，还是发明治癌新法的专家。所以，必须在孩子五岁前就纠正他的行为
i wonder hw true is tis?

VERY jumpy me durin badminton 2day lol
@ least i didnt hav any tempers.ok mayb a teeny weeny bit but it was nearin end of game so didnt really matter k.managed control my emotns in time den =p given e break
ok.nw @ least gt some altitude 4 me svc alr.lol.nw is e dist.muz try achieve!

but i alr try very hard alr.
*tis feelin is bad

a trg went bad for me =(

2009-07-05T08:41:00.000-07:00

i tink i had a bad temper durin trg 2day lol.
izit mainly cuz i cnt focus?tink i was tinkin abt aft-trg stuff durin trg lolx
roar~i tink i nidda JY!
instead of blamin my partner i shld take it as an opportunity to "run" n cover 4 her.
-when ur partner aint playin so well.u gotta play better.
-when ur partner's playin well.u gotta gv everytink u've gt.
mm..i shld bear tis 2 lines in mind when im playin tmw.hope i c improvements in myself.run!lolx.
u gotta b fster fster fster.keep ur stamina in check.go-go.

<3 chemistry

alicia:lazy luh..anw tis skin ok luh.white white de lol.

the last time

2009-07-04T08:24:00.000-07:00

o i juz realised fri was e ever 1st time i stood up so quickly juz 2 greet a teacher.lol when he came in2 class i c den immediate "bing-bong" stand up greet.lol.cuz im usually e ls few stand up de la hehz.
it was e very ls time he's gonna step in2 tis class eh?even thou i fared pretty well but i still wanted listen 2 wad he say.every min,every sec.but every1 else seemed so engrossed in their papers n marks.less than 10min to 1pm.it feels as though he came jus here to sort everything out only.it seemed he left without even giving a back glance.
does things really need to change so rapidly?They all mean something right?But,i just dont understand,at those instances,sth juz didnt feel rite.then,there.i cnt put those feelins out in words.its feel.

971

2009-07-04T08:07:00.000-07:00

0.0 its gonna reach 1000 soon!lolx.T_T.ever since i changed 2 tis blogskin.which i dunno is since when de luh?0o.mm..idk lei.ls dec?tis yr sumwhr?lolx.

everything hypothesised

2009-07-04T07:38:00.001-07:00

im really happy =) cuz i noe alittle bit more abt it nw(early circumstances from Big Bang)
mm..i dont really understand whether Big Bang theory is on just the atoms and energies or talks about life forms instead?o.o
but if humans r searchin 4 e origin of life den so wad if we knew.will we use it 2 our benefits once agn?:productn of humans w e rite recipe.
anw they nw noe abt nucletides n phosphate.so they're juz findin out ribose nw.JYs!
i tink when find out e whole uh DNA den cn relate 2 hw non-livin tinks contribute 2 DNA.
i tink DNA is CHON.0.0

Origin of Life

2009-07-04T07:10:00.003-07:00

circumstances[starting from some point of time in the past,4.8billion years ago]:
-On early Earth,there was less than 1% oxygen gas and mainly made up of hydrogen sulphate gas in the atmophere.Oceans were green and not blue.There was absolutely no sign of life on Earth.The Sun was still young and weak,unable to penetrate through the atmosphere to reach the surface of the Earth.Comets and meteorites fell onto earth every now and then.It was lava hot.

-Amino acids-peptides-polypeptides-proteins.

-Comets and meteorites contain minerals.

-Bacteria are able to live deep beneath the earth surface,using chemical energy as food.[Evidence:bacteria living around deepest mines]

-Some rocks we can find today in West Australia age back to be around 3-4billions years from now

hypothesis 1:
Earth crashed into another "planet"about the same size.Collision lead to origin of life.The other "planet" came to become Moon.

hypothesis 2:
Meteorite/comet crashed onto Earth.Immense pressure lead to formation of peptides from amino acids.But still,heat energy generated upon impact would be so great it melted[is this a good word to use?]the whole meteorite/comet.So how would any life formed then be able to survive the heat energy upon impact?

hypothesis 3:
To avoid unfavourable conditions on Earth's surface,life went beneath the surface of Earth.

hypothesis 4:
To avoid unfavourable conditions on Earth's surface,life went into oceans.

So,if life managed to survive.Bacterias would be able to produce chlorophyll and by then,it would have been 3.8 billion years ago already and the Sun is much better now.Photosynthesis occured,producing the important-oxygen.
At first oxygen dissolved into the oceans and chemically combined with iron to form iron oxide,sinking into the ocean.Many years later,iron from iron oxide formed on rocks in the ocean while the oxygen went into the atmosphere.[Evidence:largest iron mine in West Australia excavated and it used to be part of a water source]
Over many years,these bacterias increased the oxygen percentage in atmosphere from less than 1% to today's 21%.
Then came eukaryotes - multicellular life -simple animals - arthropods - complex animals - fish - land plants - insects - amphilibians - reptiles - dinosaurs - mammals - birds - flowers - the first primitive:the genus Homo - humans looking like today - Homos died out..

weird

2009-07-04T01:55:00.001-07:00

dreamt tt i was l8 4 trg 2day cuz overslept.zzz.
den woke up n scrambled out of bed unwillingly cuz TOT is SUN
zzz.make me wake up.2pid dream.2pid sat.zzz.

juz had a weird tot.since we eat carboh[CHO]den we r manufacture tinks tt contain CHO n cut open e body n juz place it in.LOLSXZ!

quizzes...just trying to stay awake...

2009-07-03T08:52:00.000-07:00

What Your Love of Snickers Says About You

You are a very popular person. People can always find something about you to like.

You are friendly and approachable. It's easy to feel comfortable around you.

You are lively, playful, and sweet. But you are also substantial too.

No matter what the situation is, you are good company... and the ideal best friend.

What Does Your Favorite Candy Say About You?

You Are Fettuccine Alfredo

Compared to most people, you have rich and decadent tastes.

If you can afford something, you'll go ahead and indulge yourself.

You are a true foodie. No food is off the table for you.

You're the type most likely to appreciate every aspect of a five star meal.

decadent?0o.

What Pasta Dish Are You?

You Have Fairly Healthy Relationships

You try your best in relationships, and you do a pretty good job.

You're as considerate, honest, and giving as you can be.

There's always more that you can do, and sometimes you do leave people feeling a bit neglected.

Great relationships don't happen overnight. As long as you keep making improvements, your relationships will get better!

Do You Have Healthy Relationships?

Your Friendship Style is Philosophical

You take every friendship you have seriously, and you spend a lot of time analyzing your friends.

You've thought a lot about what it means to be a good friend, and you hold yourself to your standard.

In return, you expect your friends to be loyal, honest, and real. You're somewhat picky about who you're friends with.

Fighting with your friends bothers you more than most people. You can't stop replaying arguments over and over in your head.

You and an Empathetic Friend: Try to understand one another. You approach life very differently, but you're willing to listen to one another.

You and a Gregarious Friend: Are a better match than expected. You understand and appreciate your Gregarious Friend's energy.

You and an Independent Friend: Get along pretty well, but you can't help but think your Independent Friend needs to learn better manners!

You and another Philosophical Friend: Are friends for life. You can get lost in your intense, interesting conversations... and maybe even change the world together!

this is like a very true quiz result.lol.

What's Your Friendship Style?

You Are Not Scary

Everyone loves you. Isn't that sweet?

yes.lolsxz.

How Scary Are You?

Your Scholastic Strength Is Evaluating

You are great at looking at many details and putting them all together.

You are talented at detecting subtle trends, accuracy, and managing change.

You should major in:

Statistics

Speech

Conflict studies

Communication

Finance

Medicine

What Should You Major In?

Your Learning Style: Innovative and Independent

You are determined and driven. Confident in your abilities, no field is too difficult for you.

You Should Study:

Astronomy

Biology

Chemistry

Design

Engineering

Philosophy

Physics

Political Science

What Should You Study?

You Are Going to Heaven

You're so saintly you're practically an angel, and there's no other place for you than heaven.

You are always concerned with doing the right thing. You consider being a good person a joy... not a burden.

You're not perfect, and you don't expect anyone else to be. You are ethical without being sanctimonious about it.

You are happy with yourself and the decisions you've made. And that's what's important.

Are You Going to Heaven or Hell?

You Are a Bodily Learner

You learn best by doing, and you have a talent for complicated, physical tasks.

You excel at athletics, drama, and fixing things.

You would be an excellent Olympic athlete - or a Broadway star!

What's Your Learning Style?

You Live a Boring Life

You aren't necessarily a boring person, but you've fallen into living a pretty boring life.

Somehow you've gotten yourself stuck in a rut, and life just isn't that interesting anymore.

You need to start acting and stop thinking so much. Just go for it, and don't let yourself come up with excuses.

The only way to make life less boring is to start living it. Let go of your hang ups. Go out and have an adventure!

Is Your Life Boring?

You Communicate With Your Ears

You love conversations, both as a listener and a talker.

What people say is important to you, and you're often most affected by words, not actions.

You love to hear complements from others. And when you're upset, you often talk to yourself.

Music is very important to you. It's difficult to find you without your iPod.

i didnt knew this before?

How Do You Communicate?

Your Fitness Type: Challenging

You often find exercise to be mundane and too routine.

You need to be continually challenged and pushed.

Try exercise that has a potentially competitive element - like running or weightlifting.

You also may like taking on a partner in a fast paced sport like tennis or racquetball.

How Should You Get Fit?

You Are 45% Hyper

You aren't exactly hyper, but no one would accuse you of being lazy either.

You have enough drive to get everything done - with energy to spare.

You don't get overly worked up or rushed. You'll happily take your time.

And you definitely enjoy your down time. You can only be hyper for so long.

Unlike more hyper types, you don't have a ton of interests and friends.

You prefer concentrating on what matters to spreading yourself too thin.

How Hyper Are You?

Your Important Priorities Are Taken Care Of

For you, sex is usually your number one priority. 0o.

You find getting things done to be fairly satisfying. You like feeling accomplished.

Your most important priorities get your attention. You are happily able to let the less important things slide.

You want money to be a high priority, but you don't often get around to it.

The Priority Test

You Make a Good First Impression

You probably are making a much better impression than you realize.

Social situations can be a bit awkward for you at times, and you tend to over think what you say and do.

If you make a social faux pas, you remember it a lot longer than anyone else does.

Just relax and do your best. There are little things you can do to improve your social image.

Express more of an interest in the people around you, and be a good listener.

The secret of fascinating people is that they find everyone else fascinating!

What Kind of First Impression Do You Make?

You are Apricot

Soft and sweet, you let your provocative nature shine through.
soft?how can u tink im actually soft?0.0
You have a true love for all people. You try to build a bridge between differences.

You are definitely unconventional, but you don't broadcast it. You are good at getting along.

You offer people a fresh perspective on life - so fresh that it can be shocking!

What Color Orange Are You?

You Are an Okay Student

You know how to get by school, but your heart isn't always in it.

Motivation is a problem for you. Maybe you need to study something more exciting!

Are You a Good Student?

screwed in the coming days baby

2009-07-03T08:07:00.000-07:00

ok 2day juz Hellz of a day cuz only gt 1 paper bac cuz no gatherin @ cc which i tot they'd do tt
[nt tt 2pid they la anw rite lol]
den 1st period ssgeog tok abt e SBQ den i friggin bored cuz i didnt attempt it =/
screwed.
bio MCQ below avg.
screwed.
esp since he say structured usually less than 20 marks upon 50 de.
lim said sciences no gd n el 1 of e lowest.
screweds.
chinese gonna screw cuz of compo n mcqs.
chem tok alr hart pain rather nt
phy is my ONLY hope.lucky gt nt bad 4 it.shall nt let mum c 1st.keep 1st.keke.gv tgt w ssgeog n bio n chem n chinese.hahas.n el lol juz slot tgt w e lousy papers la =p

went watch Ice Age 3 aft sch 2day aft a d.........r...........e.......a.........d.........y.......... day in sch =)
my parents hav decided 2 keep me @ home tmw while they go out =/
ah well i'll find sth 2 do =)

2009-07-01T23:48:00.000-07:00

lol finished watchin e movie.so very quite 2pid but e shootin parts quite nice.i tink e director tryin put alot stuff in2 e show but cnt cuz e show only 1.5hr.
nt used 2 e lappie..watchin animal planet nw =p
im seein an owl tt dropped lyk a stone when ppl set it 2 fly.lol.broke some bones i guess?lolx.
hyenas r nice wad.i lyk them 0.0
well 2pid yi shuen juz had 2 remind me of gettin papers tmw i alr 4gt everytink n anytink abt it alr luh lol um dad l8 home 2day.yiippee?
hehx

2009-07-01T20:57:00.000-07:00

on the list:
-pay off my debts!
-LP cd
-handbag,boots and maybe shirt+pants?hehx
-Ice Age 3,Harry Potter 7, chinese show part 2 and another one part 3,FBI show Duplicate?or somthing liddat starting with D one.hehx.and another show i cannot rmv already.hehx.
-stack of poker cards and 40 postcards!
-dont freak out when you fails

E-learning day?who cares~=p

2009-07-01T20:44:00.000-07:00

slacked watch anime ytd mornin.went out w Queenie watch Ghosts of Girlfriends Pasts.
i tink i didnt quite enjoy e movie comin 2 e end cuz i dun agree w e movie.
anw e ghost said "we live to eternity" so anw y bother teachin e guy anytink anw rite?lolx.
quite funny when he ruined e weddin la haha n they managed piece tgt e cake agn =p
went 2 Far East Plaza.a nice place.saw tis shirt.cheap.but didnt bought it cuz its a dark shirt.lolx.
but mayb nxt time i go thr on a shoe hunt.keke.
heh n we were lyk idiots when we mved fm 1 mac 2 another while carryin a mac tray.hahas.
went Shaw House watch.4gt e seats is lyk "no staircase de" so lyk 1sit in front ot another e height diff nt alot la.den tis 2 ladies i dun understand y they cn sit str8 thruout e movie ok?den i nt tt tall oso.heh.
send queenie off le den went shop w my mum.keke.
went tis Orchard Central but nt everytink open yet =/ i tink ION open 1st 0o
eh den @ cityhall wtF k?i didnt get in2 e train den it went n e nxt train took 25min come k.F-in long.zzz.den i was tellin myself i better get my ass in2 e train when e nxt train came cuz i dun wanna w8 4 another few F-in mins.so i squeeze in n tis 2pid aunty cut my Q sumore.den i stand till window thr seh.i juzs literally "pushed"e aunty in hu ask her cut my Q luh.heh.
cityhall by then was half flooded w ppl alr k imagine 1 side e train took 20min come n e other side e trains kept comin during peak hrs la!i tink smrt is so screwed le.juz kept tellin us hw long e train wld take 2 come n nt ofer alternatives.zzz.
wasted 20+min of my life.zz.
left 2 ep of my show nia n den juz gt a twist in e shop ls min durin show ytd wonder hw they're gonna act it out =p
nw go buy lunch den watch my 1mth old movie le.heh.Sniper.

MYE 09' ended today =P

2009-06-30T05:45:00.000-07:00

okay tok alittle abt MYE 09'
frankly speakin,thr r no sub im confident of.if wan name,den i tink is only phy but i nt sure cuz it happened ls term or Emath but tis oso scared cmi make it de.
but,wan me name a sub tt sux totally wld b CH which i totally didnt do SBQ
ls 15min of tt exam rite,i wanted @ least attempt SBQ la.but den e 1st qn ask wad u tink author feel.den immediately,my ans was neutral.so lol.i realised i wasnt cut out 4 SBQ so shyt so went do e 5m devt qn lol but my 12m devt qn oso cmi de cuz i didnt compare btw ctry in ea para.zzz.
my weakness is i dun read e _______ qn
zzz
bio 2day wth e 1st qn i alr stuck le.1/2way i went hu e _______ hellZ set tis **** paper
since i unsure hor i mite as well chiong thru e paper.hence i finished chionging thru e paper within 1 hr.den check durin 45min time left.
chem paper was heh leave it 2 hw he wanna do it alr la =)
el oso screwed cuz compre n summary
cl screwed cuz of compo n paper mcqs in front
phy i hope i was able 2 do my best =) best hopes 4 phy nw!
amath n emath shld b quite ok unless im 2pid or im careless or i nvr read qn properly or e qn was really idk hw do de.lolx.still risks involved.
currently my chem qn paper is MIA

ls sat went restring racket den met coach+family.lolx.
sun trg i tink quite ok la.lol.coach scared i ltr mon cnt rite.lolx.
didnt went 4 e 2nd trg cuz mom no allow =(

2day went bugis e new mall.went thr 1st time 2day.reached entrance den gt tis shop named eh sth abt Blondes de la.lol.den wanted take pic so tis person walk by den ask help take.say TY le den c.
Crystal:ehy u sure nt video ar
-den jesslyn check den is video sia.
walao!
ate @ tis ulu restaurant.e noodles soso but e soup quite nice n e chick oso.
crystal no lyk coke light =/
bought tics to Transformers.
[wanna watch Ice Age 3 n Harry Potter 6 n Ghosts of Girlfriends' Past]
den walked den saw e stack of postcards i've been lkin 4.is $15+ den cnt find deck of poker cards i wan 1 =/

dad juz home.soyabean!

ytd missed 1 epi of my 10 o'clock show.comin fri is ls epi le...
comin fri oso nidda go CCPS open house !
tis wk no CCAs..
realised until nxt wed den me strt studyin in sch unless comin tue confirm is checkin papers luh.

bio exam say time's up time i nt say very feel wad la.juz tired..
den oso cuz fri checkin papers n i noe i no do well so quite depressed oso.lolx.
shall go LMS c gt wad tink,MSN mayb read blogs watch 1 epi anime den watch e 10 o'clock show den slp 11pm den wake up den badminton den outing agn.c wad they wan luh if nt i rest @ home tmr aftnoon =)

3A bbq '09

2009-06-26T08:58:00.000-07:00

its 11.58pm nw.time flies.indeed.very indeed.
time flies xceptionally fs 2day.indeed.very indeed.

in e mornin.gt up went 4 badminton.tis gal under kelly wee's private coachin say he toked abt me 2 her b4 lol i tink i gt nth much 2 b toked abt lehx?
den tis guy i tink he long no play badminton le.low svc oso cnt.lolx.
durin badminton.time passed hr by hr.i was lyk y time so slow?bbq leh..?

went home.ate in e bus so nt bored.lol.i tink e ppl behind me irritated cuz they keep *ahem ahem* lolx.
but still as usual,me heckcare them la.lolx.

lol i rather made an xceptn 2day.made an effort 2 arrive at least alittle b4 2.30pm lolx.
when i reached thr den is e usual 3:crystal boonhui lingyi
ok so in a sense i was e 1st la?lolx
parvathy live so near?!come latest seh?!
tsk tsk.
took 112 thr den nidda walk 1 big round 2 entrance cuz e freakin guard juz wunt let us in.[chillz]
den reach entrance nidda fill tis freakin form when e guards gt eyes 2 c tt we're a big grp lol den nid fill in IC oso de.lolx.
waste time la.=p
block 30?09-38.
reached functn rm.played concentratn?n played e "tink-tong"game zzz gt 1 part i turn rite den "tink!" turn left "tong!" lolx i always kena caught in e mid 1 seh bleahsxz
e 2nd time he asked hu wanna help take stuff den i was lyk "me!"den i raised my hand very fs.den alittle while ltr i feel lyk i was e only 1 hu gave such a big rxn.lol.
went his hse help take bbq stuff den his dog dam cute w e big big eyes!!den he keep flap his ears den hit goh's mum's face.lol dam funny+cute la!i didnt noe he participates in standard chartered marathon yrly de lehx?idk is his hse 2 many tinks or condos r very indeed small.lol.but his condo geographical locatn?is quite gd cuz is quite quiet =) [ as long as no1 plays in e field?lol]
his mum is oso a nice person=) esp bought dinner 4 vegetarian aarthi =D xieZ!

"huh ur only wanna stay here n play e whole day ar?" sth liddat la he said
den went field.played tis nt short game e jump over leg game but nt tt fun-sustained kinda game?lol cuz 2 little ppl le.den frisbee.did a forehand throw.quite nice.but only d once so dunno if i really cn do forehand throw ma.lol.cuz little ppl frisbee me =/ saded *runs in a corner n cries.
lolx.
ice&melt[relive memories of pri sch,lol]but pri sch ice&melt i play is mre hiong n gt more places 2 hide fm catchers de n dun let em c ya if wanna save ppl.lol.
出了一身汗再回functn rm.
aft tt okay cards?
ps!if ya ever nid my help in anytink i'll try my best but ps sry dui bu qi wadeva if ya ask me bbq or cook anytink,end product:cha0 da
i officially declare myself havin absolute 0 potential in becoming a chef in future.lolx
e aircon drip 1 side den still cn chnge aircon drip 1 ok.den nid mvr e pail sumore.lol.
twister i tink we cheat tt y nt fun de =/
mrs chaiw came!quite surprised mansxz.
kang took some teachers on a tour around e condo but i tot nth 1 lehx lolx
@ 1st boonhui n jesslyn were afraid presents nt enuf they so scared lol
but den is juz nice.in a sense gt 1 more xtra de.heh.
den ltr on it was freakin obvious we're havin an illegal gatherin outside e functn rm la n e way we brought in e presents thou nt say very nt obvious but @ least we made an effort 2 make it seem nt obvious k.so still credits.hehx.
{i didnt noe evelyn reads comics lolx}
eng made muffins n pastries nt so gt standard of those renowed chefs but still he made n effort k n tts wad made it taste nice^^
den teachers drew lots n mine is 5 but idk wad dwarf it is so i wasnt able 2 ans her when she asked me lol i gave 2 ms lin.
ok i wasnt able 2 find sneezY!i wonders hu gt it 0o
oo nat scared of teachers i ls time scared de nw upper sec le nt so scared le juz times dun really dare lk in2 their eyes 4 long lol hahas mayb she scared cuz everytine teacher always lurb call her de leh?hehx.
den aft presents gvin henqq seh gt bring chiaw's present sia.
ya den play "whrs e 10cent coin?" game
gt 1 part she pt me but henqq is i juz pass it on liao henqq =p
kang's son say his teeth is alittle crooked but cuz i asked cuz @ 1st i tot his teeth cracked cuz only cn c lyk 1/4 of a teeth?lol?den i tot wah cn crooked until liddat oso de meh den i oso ps ask him "E" any further wad lolx
den ppl strt/cont leavin
den played silent hart att 2 or 3 times
den i tink we wanted play in-btw but crystal say wan go hm le so yea =/
otherwise i tink i wld b freakin bloated nw lol tt time in-btw drank drinks @ celine's bdae pt den walao i fm den on 4 a while didnt dare drink Sprite le lol
den kang say wan show us whr is e place cn best call cab
den walk a while den i ask 做么他们没有跟上来? den jesslyn say they takin lingyi mum's car
den walk walk walk den kang sudd stop.den i tot wad happened?lol.gt big tink meh?0/0
den he was lyk whr r e rest?lol.is apparantly he dunt understand cl or he really deep in tots eh?
lolx
den e place whr he took us was e place i wanted go cab de.....................
e boy 7 yrs old nia lol quite cute la =p
i dunt tink his sis is pretty =XXX

feel happy aft bbq ended 2day actually runnin in e field hurts my ankle but nbm 2day xceptn^^
idk i juz felt everytink ended 2 fs n i feel juz happy^^

2009-06-25T08:24:00.001-07:00

from this hols,i've either gotten over-sensitive or realised tt we're all still very much immature..

2009-06-25T02:40:00.000-07:00

lol!i wonder hw e present will turn out.0.0.paste on vanguard sheet?0o.i hab absolutely no idea!lolx even thou e postcards idea was mind but e presentatn style idea nt mind so quite xpectin hw it'd turn out.i wrote my postcard liao.spent lyk long long time den juz cn find a suitable postcard nia =p e kind whr gt dam lotta space rite de.keke.sumore my handritin ok la cnt say very small @ least im able 2 rite it out means ppl will b able c 1 luh lolx.
shall go 4 badminton tmw n come home bathe pack pack den go hougang agn.lolx.in a little consideratn of stayin @ hougang 4 2hrs instead run here thr but i tink unless i feel otherwise den i wld stay thr luh but most lykly nt lolx.tis post is absolutely fulfillin its task 2 take up space on my blog.ty.^^

2009-06-25T02:39:00.000-07:00

mm..i find myself nt bad lolx spent 1 wk memorise[includes playing time]all chapt of SSgeog n bio
left readin n understandin biop expt,memorise ss formats n readin on healthcare[ls min] n doin math......

2009-06-25T02:37:00.000-07:00

apparantly part of e previous post seems lyk me-lazy-organise-plus-englishlish poem to me 0.0

2009-06-25T02:30:00.000-07:00

woah i'd had many many tots so idk y so juz felt lyk blog all of a sud
but nw idk wad 2 blog le lolx

tmw 3A bbq @1st felt alittle xcited but on 2nd tots i'd wish time cld stop @ 2day n tmw'd nvr come
reality is so cruel 2 face sumtimes n yet n yet n yet i always noe tt reality nvr lies
n self-denial nvr works
however however tmw's bbq will turn out i leave it all 2 fate
it cld b teary gdbyes or a ls smilesxz left behind
i wondered i pondered if a wk was ever enuf n truth showed it flawed
a day a wk a mth wad folos tells me none?
said were easier done
promises were so...wad
a promise made
a fulfillment yet done
comes burdens
weighing down hard

but alas all's not gone wad little time wad memories left shant b forsaken i swear it steadfast

2009-06-21T06:59:00.000-07:00

woah tired 2day..2 ppl nvr come more tirin?i oso dunno y nt really tirin stuff did wad 0.0 mayb less ppl i pia more?0o.

dad day!!today!!!wen did i noe????1230pm today.zzzzz.

bought a brownie dunno fm which shop but is eh appearance is nice la.toppin is white choco,goes lyk diagonal stripes de.den use rainbow rice [tsk raffles place only gt The Market Place] spell out e words 'happy father day' on brownie
then 2 of my uncle bought 75% orange dark choco fm The Cocoa Trees
lol use within my budget of $10[cuz only hav tt much.tsk.] then left $1 lemme buy Mac drink =p

tsk coach keep sayin i no sincerity walao tell him try do sth nice in <3hr la tsk.

then i waste time go tanjong pagar cuz e Xchange place nt even open yet,zzz.
den wen raffles city basement get stuff n everytink i oso quite"peii fu" myself hw get everytink 4 presents juz in a basement?lolx.
den e chocos use red ribbon..

bio left memorising nutritn in humans,plants n transportatn in plants.kinda dread strtin memorise it cuz really alot.lolx.

2pid Celine wen msia oso dunno hw tell ppl 1

lol 2day ppl came 2 trg by 4.20pm only 3 ppl thr nia 0o.

lolx train trip 2 tanjong pagar is nt far de luh...

dunno y my eyelids wanna close 0o

2009-06-19T09:48:00.001-07:00

svc is such a prob

2009-06-19T09:46:00.000-07:00

2days ago takin 26
tis guy was so givin a blatant lie mansxz

[guy is on the phone]
guy:我现在没有空我要上课
when he is just sittin at e bac of e bus lolx

2009-06-19T09:43:00.000-07:00

havnt blogged in ages~~~~~~~~~~~~~

busy w stuff i dont wanna tell any1
busy w e usual hol stuff
busy w e necessary stuff

animes~
h1n1=no sch ma?

it all comes dwn to juz 1 tink-C
increasing exposure=interesting

its in a mess!

3A bbq~
bio-memorise JY!eh..hang on2 12noon-break-then.c.how

competition at TJC

2009-06-09T03:41:00.001-07:00

idk la juz too many mistakes i tink n i tink i subconsciously gave up too early in e game.
idk cuz e 1st time i fall dwn hit my left knee.but still can.e 2nd time i fall dwn hit my rite knee.den veryveryveryvery PAIN nw bend still pain sia.SHYT SHYT SHTY!
idk i blue-black or wad.cuz on surface nth lei 0.0 which makes it worse actually
i hope tmw i can play w all my best =)

2009-06-05T20:42:00.000-07:00

JYs on hitting 100 cip hour =P

2009-06-05T05:31:00.000-07:00

today trgs nt even as tough as coach simon's trg on tues.LOLX.

2009-06-03T05:12:00.000-07:00

omfg!
tis gal gt a GREY EEYORE
n she bought fm HK disneyland too!
but minez bluez 0o
but still nicez =D

Flag Day w YT[children's society]

2009-06-03T05:04:00.000-07:00

went 4 Flag Day w yanting 2day =P
while e rest were busy trg....tis was wad i was doin at bishan mrt outside...

"hi would you like to donate?"
[if person donating]
"this is for the children's society"
[later on]
"hi do you want a sticker?"

YES.tis was wad i was sayin only..these 3 lines...zzz.
LOL
but quite fun cuz can c alot of 奇奇怪怪的人
gd:3 ex Cedarians,1 volunteer,1 donater for children's society,ang moh tt gave $10,aunty tt donated 2 me 10times[juz 2 get 10 stickers.lolx],senior,ex vice head prefect of Cedar
bad:nanyang badminton galz,ppl hu gv 10c n auto take my stickers T_T,guy tt scolded me 4 wastin my time doin tis

its lyk e bag is gettin freakin heavier as more coins r inside lolx.
yay we did pt 2day
cuz we stand thr[walk abit]
hold on2 e bag
tok alot[irrelavent]

lolx e person say my bag is heavy when i only err..did lyk 4h of collectin $$ lolx

so sticky nw grr..

oh n 2pid yt didnt wanna get on2 e same mrt as me in e mornin =(!

2009-06-02T06:24:00.001-07:00

i dont tink i can tink properly nw.i cant even gv a gd conversatn w my sis.lolx
wanted finish up my cl hwk cuz idk wth it is askin 4,wads e diff
so..i shall find a way 2 spend e rest of
OMG i left my card in my skirt--went in2 washin machine
gosh~!
~yawns~

1st day w coaches[fun eh?]

2009-06-02T05:49:00.000-07:00

sat went 4 bbq at The Florida

sun
run
download things
trg

mon played com whole day till can cut fingers lolx

TUE
1st day c coaches,he finally said it to team
its ironic aint it
do e footwork.my thigh muscles nt strong enuf
den e half court turnin drill i tink i didnt geddit or i too slow liao
=B they only say instructions once
so i tink i muz get used 2 it 0.0
Jesslyn is so dead when shes bac
e court very slipperly
*cough* but u cant blame e court 4 everytink.so 加油!事在人为!
rotation is so fun
but i noe it'll only get tougher w increasin sets
e coach dunno i cant really serve high shots!
die
muz self-train liao since he emphasis on it 1
i mite wake up in e mid of e nite w leg cramps,well,hu noes =P
i realise days pass by quickly n somethings r juz nt within ur reach baby
gah..i tink e coach say i nt gd enuf.nt strong enuf.smash nt gd enuf.alertness nt high enuf.
idk i tink im lackin in everytink!
他山之石,可以攻玉
i hope my knees will nvr gv way,at least 4 e comin 1 yr..
square rotation
smash drive tap
follow up smash
defense counter-attack
type b4 i 4get =P
so stiff la me!grr..
[1st day 4 u,seemingly ls day 4 him...but at lest its nt 4 e time being]
when he broke e news[in a sense]it seems tt [seems] none of e badminton team was really quite sad
izit juz me[me?]or wad.i managed 2 stop myself b4 tears flow out agn.i managed 2 stop myself b4 all of badminton memories came bac 2 me agn
n den i rmb..how sweet everytink,every event,everytink we did as a class,u were always thr 2 guide us,help us.

2009-05-29T07:19:00.000-07:00

it doesnt feel lyk its hols nw.

cl compo.wrote a 2pid story.shyt.

slacked.

cl paper oso shitty.

coffee.mugged acids&bases.

CHEM PAPER
its lyk a routine 4 me alr.whenever i c e word purity or yield i'll juz skip e qn w/o hesitatn.
i came bac 2 try 1 of these qns n i went.wa really cannot la.juz do abit den felt tis way alr leh
durin e exam,i was lyk,shyt,only me nvr study 4 this.l8r i muz go kill e person hu tolf me nt 2 study tis 1.den i was quite sad alr =(
papers collected.clara went,ehy!joanne,u gt study percentage thingy?
i went no
den i was tinkin wa henqq,at least i nt e only 1 hu nvr study =P
den aft exam.ur are dismissed
den went out of hall.
"ehy u gt study tis or nt?"
"ehy u gt study?"
yaya,basically 3A n 3N dunno how do percentage purity n yield la.
ok nw tt is impossible
so abt 1/3 of 3A gathered cuz we wanna protest le la.UNFAIR!
went 2 e stage.
teacher"sorry gals,i am busy now"
clara"ehy why is percentage purity and yield tested?"
teacher"i told u it was nt tested"
crowd"IT'S TESTED!"
[damn cool this part,seemingly we'd rehearsed it b4]
[low voice]teacher to teacher2:its not tested right?
[low voice]teacher2&3 to teacher"it's tested."
[low voice]teacher"i thought it was not?!"
teacher2"i think your better go first"

yea.yea, so i think he didnt c e paper la n i dun tink he wld b so cruel 2 wanna make us lose tt 13marks one so yea......Man do err.
but this totally affect 2/3 of e rest of my day.i regretted joinin e crowd=(

PHYSIC EXAM
i was damn scared ok.......
cuz i only felt e scaredness rite b4 e exam..
nat sleeve sumhow can get other ppl badges one =P pro kia
n OMG so tirin!
so many drawings!
my neck stiff enuf alr den e drawings,nid me turn e paper here n thr,wakao.i sit thr until bei tahan alr.
lk at clock.y wunt it mve fster.lolx.
my trip gonna b postponed but actually its kinda gd so mayb i cang osign up 4 e chem trip instead =)

dang-dang
i tot i was juz some housekeeping matters
i really didnt expect it to be tt when he called for us
i expected it somehow via eng purposely showin us his inbox on 2 periods n him callin me 2 readin sessn when he used"ur muz let e teacher-in-charge noe" instead of "let me noe"
its all so coincidental happening in a wk,tt i juz force myself 2 believe tt its all nt true
2 days later,fri,i 4gt all abt it.

im leaving the service
and thats a bold decision
i want to do it my way

clara broke dwn almost instantaneously at tt instant when he said e 1st sentence,which makes it difficult 4 me alr.but still i tried my best 2 remain chirpy through much of his speech.i onyl shed one tear when he was in e class loh =B
but e reason i broke dwn was when badminton memories came rushin bac 2wards me.
thr r alot of things i want to say,i noe he motivated me not just once,but many ones.
i noe he was juz e type of person i am,systematic n practical.
thr r juz so many things,i will pen it dwn...

2009-05-23T22:10:00.000-07:00

Roses For Rose

Red roses were her favorites;
her name was also Rose,
And every year her husband sent them tied with pretty bows.
The year he died the roses were delivered to her door,The card said "Be My Valentine" like all the years before.

Each year he sent her roses and the note would always say,
"I love you even more this year than last year on this day,
My love for you will always grow with every passing year,"
She knew this was the last time that the roses would appear.

She thought he ordered roses in advance before this day,
Her loving husband did not know that he would pass away.
He always liked to do things early way before the time,
Then if he got too busy everything would work out fine.

She trimmed the stems and placed them in a very special vase,
Then sat the vase beside the portrait of his smiling face.
She would sit for hours in her husband's favorite chair,
While staring at his picture and the roses sitting there.

A year went by and it was hard to live without her mate,
With loneliness and solitude that had become her fate.
Then the very hour as on Valentines before,
The doorbell rang and there were roses sitting by her door.

She brought the roses in and then just looked at them in shock,
Then went to get the telephone to call the florist shop.
The owner answered and she asked him if he would explain,
Why would someone do this to her causing her such pain?"

I know your husband passed away more than a year ago,"
The owner said, "I knew you'd call and you would want to know."
"The flowers you received today were paid for in advance,
Your husband always planned ahead he left nothing to chance."

"There is a standing order that I have on file down here,
And he has paid well in advance you'll get them every year."
"There also is another thing that I think you should know,
He wrote a special little card he did this years ago."

"Then should ever I find out that he's no longer here,
That's the card that should be sent to you the following year."
She thanked him and hung up the phone her tears now flowing hard,
Her fingers shaking as she slowly reached to get the card.

Inside the card she saw that he had written her a note,
Then as she stared in total silence this is what he wrote.
Hello my love I know it's been a year since I've been gone,
I hope it hasn't been too hard for you to overcome.

I know it must be lonely and the pain is very real,
For if it was the other way I know how I would feel.
The love we shared made everything so beautiful in life,
I loved you more than words can say you were the perfect wife.

You were my friend and lover you fulfilled my every need,
I know it's only been a year but please try not to grieve.
I want you to be happy even when you shed your tears,
That is why the roses will be sent to you for years.

When you get these roses think of all the happiness,
That we had together and how both of us were blessed.
I have always loved you and I know I always will,
But my love you must go on you have some living still.

Please try to find happiness while living out your days,
I know it is not easy but I hope you find some ways.
The roses will come every year and they will only stop,
When your door's not answered when the florist stops to knock.

He will come five times that day in case you have gone out,
But after his last visit he will know without a doubt,
To take the roses to the place where I've instructed him,
And place the roses where we are together once again.

2009-05-23T22:01:00.001-07:00

oh and i made a new friend=)

2009-05-23T21:59:00.001-07:00

mugging...but not so much oso=P

xctry '09 MR GOH IS SO NICE

2009-05-21T06:59:00.000-07:00

half of my class top4 runners nvr come =(
aarthi sick,clara injured.
yi ning clocked 4th =)
celine got 11th?

they made us walk so far.then my hart lyk wan jump out alr.lolx.juz excited =)
strted.sprinted.running.
then sudd mr goh run beside me
mr goh:wah i finally catch up with you already
me:(shocked+smileszx)
[he cld actually lyk run w colleagues,chat,wadeva,of all gd runners in front of me,he wanted 2 pace me.so actually i was quite honoured in a sense =)][well mayb cuz he wanted 3A 2 get team event so he no choice had 2 pace a slow person of e 4 runners but i believe otherwise though =P]
then he was REALLY NICE
he paced me all e way home
2+km i was runnin la
3.3km strtin slow dwn
ls stretch kns 3-4 ppl cut me sia
zzz
but stilllll i hope i'd improved my position =) i hope hope hope!=)
o then i ran w priscilla oso =) quite fun
top10 lyk all trackers 1 loh lolx

rushed home
watched Angels&Demons w mummyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
shh!

deadbeat

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2009-05-20T06:50:00.000-07:00

#1 me:我不明白座右铭的意思.
teacher:那是一个人的规则,以让他更简单地知道自己要如度过每一天.
me:那可以有很多个吗?
teacher:那他不是很乱?

on the way home.........

#2 me:is it your first time here?

irene:no i was here before with my mum.

me:no.i mean here here this restaurant.

irene:ya.i came here with my mum before.

me:are you sure?then why you keep dropping stuff!

irene:maybe its because of you!

me:no.not me.must be you yourself.or this place doesn't like you!

irene:next time if joanne calls me i will never not eat with her.

me:that means you will always eat with me!

#3 me:does FangLing study?

irene:ya.she's like the most hardworking girl in the whole hostel.do you know she is the

champion for math olympiad in china?go google her.=P

me:wah

#4 aunty:为什么你讲话讲到一半?

me:Orh.因为我在想东西.

#5 aunty2:wait!wait!wait!....wait!...wait!

she runs down stairs...towards her car..

aunty2:i'm here already.i'm here already.*smileszx*

summon officer walks away without a word.

#6: 2 primary school kids half my height stared at me enviously.

just because i was holding onto a bubble tea?

2009-05-19T08:12:00.000-07:00

Wish you wouldn't keep it all inside{quote fm queenie's blog}

but i wonder how true is that.just how many people will be willing to open their doors?just how many people will actually listen to them when they just gather up enough courage to do so?just how many people are suffering out there like there?just how many people thinks of it as a kind of suffering? it's nostalgic.it's weird.perceptions.well.i'm just not too good with it.i guess? but i noe your always there for me though =)